I am happy and have friends but I get so depressed and just full of hatred for the world. I literally HATE this society but I'm still happy?? Sometimes it gets so bad I want to kill myself but I'm scared of pain. I try drugs and acid is fun but it only makes me hate this world more after using it. My dad and brother are bipolar and depressed and use drugs and alcohol as an escape I'm scared i am going to be the same. What do I do?