I am a 20-year-old young woman and I am tired of not knowing what my body is going to do to me next...
At the age of 16 (the typical age for silliness and shenanigans), I proceeded to get very inebriated for only the second time in my life. I had been wrestling with friends, and at some point, hit my head on a metal stand of some sort. A minute later, I was sitting on the floor, trying to calm down and staring at the ceiling fan when my eyes suddenly rolled back into my head and my head/neck/limbs/digits started convulsing. I could hear everything; I was not unconscious, but I could not bring my eyes forward. I didn't vomit, bite my tongue, etc. The more serious convulsions went on for about a half-hour, but the effects lasted a total of four hours (minor twitching, extreme fatigue, troubles speaking, poor motor skills).
I have not since had "seizures" of this exact severity since, but I have had many others ever since. I say seizures with quotations because upon describing them to my doctor, he asked if I have ever lost consciousness. "No? Well then it is not a seizure."
I am sick of terrifying my friends and loved ones with my stupid, damned "freakout sessions"... These typically occur at times of stress or even at random. At worst, 3 or 4 times a week.
Currently, I am taking Cipralex for depression and anxiety. I do have panic attacks. Typically, before the convulsions, I become very nervous and twitchy. Loud noises provoke an explosively fearful reaction at these times. More often than not, I can still talk somewhat.
I am occasionally prescribed Ativan. I am not proud of it, but I have recently begun to drink excessively and have in the past. I have a history of painkiller abuse. Other drugs such as marijuana, cocaine, etc. are nonexistent in my life.
I hope this is enough information... Please, someone, what the heck is wrong with me?