I want to start this post by saying that I am literally in tears and hope that I can make some sense.
I am a 34 year old, Caucasian female in Northern Ontario, Canada, 5’ 4”, and I weight 220lbs. I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism 13 years ago, and not once in those 13 years has it been stable. After my long time GP died I went years without proper medical care and when I did get one he took several years to believe that it was underactive. He believes that a TSH in the 6 – 9 area is okay and leaves my medication (synthroid) at the same level. and I should add that the only blood work I have had done in probably 10 years is my thyroid. Nothing else.
In Feb 2006 I quit smoking. Before that I was a size 14 – 16. Since then I have ballooned up to my current size. I have now seen 4 doctors about it. My family doctor told me it was because I quit smoking and I will eventually lose it. I went back 2 years ago and he told me it was what I ate. I need to go see a nutritionist (I have a severe allergy to eggs and am very aware of what I eat and the last 2 I saw listed things with eggs in their plans). I had brought in a meal diary from the past several months and he disregarded it. Told me that it wasn’t detailed enough – it didn’t include the gum I chewed (sugarless). I guess the notes that I had 3 McDonalds fries (from my son) didn’t clue him in on how detailed I kept it.
Next I saw a fill in dr. to my GPs office. He told me it wasn’t what I was eating (less than 1200 cal a day for 2 years at this point) that I needed to exercise more. Even if it meant sitting on an exercise bike every night for the whole evening. The next dr. I saw told me to eat 2 frozen dinners a day (600cal total a day) and even people in concentration camps lose weight.
Needless to say I gave up on talking to dr.s. I have no appetite. As a matter of fact I can’t remember the last time I felt hungry. Years and years ago. For 2 years I did consume less than 1000cal a day – probably 4-5 days each week was only 600cal if that. And guess what? Not a single pound gone.
My TSH level 2 months ago was 97 and my GP put me on 125mcg synthroid. 6 weeks ago I started taking 187 (1 plus a half) and it made the difference that I can now stay awake to 8pm from coming home from work and falling asleep. I walk/jog 5 miles in an hr a day and do 30-40 min of Ten Minute Trainer 4 – 5 times a week. Doing this the last 7 months and I have not lost one single cm. Not ONE! Clearly under 1000cal a day wasn’t working and I have read over and over that you must have an intake of 1200cal a day so I increased my calories to 1200-1300 a day. 1 ensure for breakfast, one for lunch, 2 fruits as snacks and a large salad and fish or chicken breast for dinner 6 days a week. Sundays I eat beef with my son (his reward too for eating fish and chicken 6 days a week) – tonight it’s hamburgers. I don’t add salt, I don’t eat processed food, and I don’t eat flour or eggs. And we eat out once a month.
So…. I gathered my courage once again, printed off a sample of the last 2 weeks of my normal eating habits and off I went to see the dr. at the walk in clinic. His answer? other than clear misbelieve that I am not a couch potato stuffing my face every day with crap, sugar, fat and pop, was to tell me that I may need an adjustment to my thyroid medication (I asked him for a rx for dissected thyroid – 13 years of not having a sable TSH was enough for me – oh and his opinion was that singularly the only the TSH needs to be tested and TSH level is very accurate diagnoses) but that if I wanted to lose weight I had to decrease my calories. Even if that meant taking them very low. I asked if he had ever known anyone to consume 600 calories a day for an extended time and he said no. I told him that clearly he wasn’t listening to me because I did it for 3 years and it didn’t make a ***n bit of difference. I also asked about ‘starvation mode’ and he told me that even then you lose weight.
So here I am. With no answers. Not only no answers but feeling like a complete fool. 4 doctors and not one of them believe me. They don’t believe my family when they tell them that what I say is true. Everything on the internet is telling me to do all things I am already doing or the other option of gastric bypass (which the last dr. said I wasn’t big enough for – at which point I asked if he hadn’t heard me when I told him eating was not my ***n problem). And here I am, still in tears because I don’t have any answers, and no hope. None.
I am sorry for going on for so long. And I really appreciate anyone who reads this. Even more if any one has any suggestions.