Hello my name is Nadine,
I am currently in a relationship with my boyfriend of 2 years, he is the most amazing person I have ever met, we have had the best of times together and to be fair he treats me like I'm a princess; most of the time though I feel like I do not deserve it, I always blame myself for the way it went between us and this is why...
About a year ago I was suffering from severe mood swings, being really angry and snappy; as well as this I became rather depressed. I went to the doctors and he ran some blood tests and then diagnosed me with hypothyriodism, I had began taking medication but it never made me feel any better. I became really aggressive towards my boyfriend and would moan at him for the most smallest things. I was also extremelely emotional and cryed all the time; things were so bad that he tried to break up with me once, but I cried and cried to him down the phone begging him not to; I was crying so much I was sick. (He didn't break up with me). My symptoms and my guilt of how I was to him got so bad that I attempted suicide via overdose 3 times, one of these times was on the night of my 18th birthday and I ended up in hospital. As well as this I would puch walls until my knuckles blead and would cut my wrists and legs; I felt like this is what I deserved.
I was so tired of everybody going on about me making sure that I was taking my medication all the time; I mean it didn't feel like it was making me any better but worse, it didn't even make me lose any weight.
About 5 months ago I decided to stop taking my medication without telling anybody, not even my doctor; and to be honest I have never felt better. My relationship with my boyfriend has massively improved and we are now stronger than ever before! I love him so much and I am glad that I have stopped taking my medication because it has saved my relationship; we have many things planned such as a holiday in the summer for example, I am so happy... AND I FEEL GREAT!