Hey all - I was recently diagnosed with hyperthyroidism due to Graves disease. My T4 levels are 1.5 to 2 times higher than normal, which is high but according to my endo not extremely high for Graves. I went to the doctor because I was (and am) dealing with extreme anxiety and depression - at first I thought it was because of a recent family tragedy, but after reading about my medical condition on the internet it seems my anxiety might be linked to the disease. I am constantly feeling as though something terrible is about to happen to me and am prone to spontaneous crying. I was having panic attacks until my doctor put me on beta blockers. I have now been taking antithyroid hormone for over a week, but have noticed no improvement =( Sometimes I feel like I would rather be dead than continue living with this condition!
To make matters worse, I had a problem in my relationship a week or so into my depression. My girlfriend of almost 3 years threatened a breakup after she suffered some hormonal changes due to medication prescribed to her by her gynecologist. Even though she didn't follow through, this gave me a panic attack and caused my depression to spiral out of control. Literally the next day I felt like I couldn't be with her anymore, and I still am battling this feeling more than a month later. In fact it has grown so strong that it is starting to consume me mentally. I am seeing a psychologist but am not sure how much it is helping (to be honest we haven't talked about this specific issue very much yet). I am crying more every day now, because this is a girl who I used to think was the best, most beautiful and amazing girl on earth, and now I irrationally feel like I cannot be with her. I feel like my love for her is being blocked =(
Is this normal?? Is there any hope? I am trying desperately to hang on to our relationship. She does not know I feel this way. I do not want to tell her because it could really damage things further - imagine being told by your partner that they do not feel like they can be with you anymore.
Am I just not giving the antithyroid enough time to work? It has been over a week since I started taking it. It is extremely difficult to be patient - I feel like I'm going insane and losing control of my life. I just bought a house last year but I have been living with my parents for over two months now because I feel so emotionally unstable =(
Does anyone have any similar experience to mine? I just need some hope...