Hi, I need answers, I've spoken with only one other person about this problem and we are scheduled to get it checked out in about a week, unfortunately anxiety is making things much worse for me and I can't bear it, so here I am, asking for some friendly strangers advice.
I've read up on many, many articles about HIV and AIDS and believe if anyone, I should be the one knowing what is going on with my own body.
Somewhere between November and early december this woman and I had intercourse, it was protected of course, I did not reach climax. I noticed no signs of her being infected, other than maybe pale skin, of course she's not one to go out in the sun too often anyways. Now I have to say that alcohol was involved, in-fact back then alcohol was big for me, being a young man and all, just in case if this could be a factor, maybe backing up hepatitis or some other disease. After that I had not seen her for about 2-3weeks and all was fine, I had no symptoms other than feeling just a bit unexercised, maybe weaker, but not really notable, (though around the time of intercourse I worked out daily, at this time I did not) and other than that I felt great. 2-3weeks later we had another rendevou and about a week later I noticed my skin around the base of my penis and above was breaking out, this I have diagnosed myself and I now know that I am infected with genital herpes, though I was told by another person it was just crabs, so I dismissed the thought and my anxiety was gone. About a month later I had another outbreak, a lot less serious this time thus I knew.
Around the beginning of January of this year I started feeling a bit weak, but yet again I dismissed it as not getting enough exercise. At the beginnning of february I started to have hot flashes at night, and I just now am beginning to think that they were caused by sleep anemia, because I sometimes sleep with heavy blankets over my head, and my breathing is then a bit heavier, not to mention it makes the air under there a lot warmer. Around the same time I noticed that the left gland right beside my jawbone was swollen, honestly I believethat I had an ear infection at the time, unfo I am not positive, but it went away within the week. The hot flashes continued, though It seems they have gone away for the most part. Other than this, I have found that I have trouble knwoing when my blatter is full, I do not get an urge to pee, my stomach just kinda feels like it has a bit of tension there. Last week I finally got enough money to get my internet connection as well as a mmo (massively multiplayer online-game) and I got it, because of this I have been staying up and not getting enough rest, right now I am beyond weakened, sometimes I wonder how I am still living, it is like I have absolutely no energy to move my limbs, though I do anyways. This is when I had cause for concern and began looking up information and the symptoms of HIV, this last week has been nearly ***l for me, at one point my hands started trembling since I was getting so worked up. This last week I have also noticed that I have had nearly constant muscle twitching, varying from the wrist(thumb, and fingers movement) eyebrow, calves, outer thigh, abdomen. The eyebrows, thumb and calves I learned twitching is indeed a sign of anxiety and stress. I was ready to dismiss it all though, because I had no sore throat, or rashes, nor a dry cough or cough of any kind for that matter. Just a day ago my face started to begin fealing flushed, and warm. The back of my fingers turn somewhat salmon colored at times, but it dissappears! I feel no rash on my hands, but I can sometimes see it. What is worse is that I now find that between my buttox and leg I have a mild rash, though it only lines the crease. As far as my groin lymph glands go, yes there are swollen, though this is due to the herpes I believe. I am deathly worried that things will get worse, though sometimes I can let it go, others I get all out of shape over it. I know the best thing to do right now is to just now be stressed, but I cannot help it to a certain degree. Right now things are at it's worse as far as my mental state goes, I have read up on it and so far I believe that there is no rash that can be caused by stress, that I believe is the key to dianosis.