In the past, I have attempted to be intimate with two men and both times didn't work out because I couldn't get aroused (and thus too dry for sex). I don't enjoy French kissing and being touched/kissed only feels ticklish. I even tried watching ***n to see if it would improve my sexual drive but it didn't help. I have experienced orgasm via masturbation and still do it about once a month or less though it takes a long long time (like 45+ mins) to get there so most of the time, I just give up.
My family thinks I'm gay and I have considered the possibility and after much thinking, I realized that the way I felt about women was the same as men, pleasing visually in clothes but not sexually attractive.
I'm a fit and healthy twenty-six-year-old and for the most part, I am comfortable with being alone. I've been at my job for the last 2+ years and never once have I had a partner so the rumor about me being a virgin among the men was spreading around. I was really embarrassed but only one of them ever asked me directly so far. I really want to get married like my siblings and have children but I may be incapable of having sex or falling in love. I've been thinking about having an one-night-stand and using plenty of lubricant to get it over with... Any helpful advice?