Okay please dont judge.
In january i had anal sex with this guy and we didn't use protection. He didnt **m inside me but i did swallow some of his semen. I found out after that this guy has had multiple partners and i dont know if he used protection for any of them. Then in March with a differnt guy i swallowed some of his semen too but we didnt have sex. It is now june and I had a lymph node a week ago and i threw up for no reason. I never throw up(very rare for me). i am so worried that i have hiv or some std. I am so stupid why didnt i just say no. I am sappose to be leaving the country soon and if i am hiv positive then i cant recieve my visa and i wont be able to go! Ugh!! This is the worst feeling in the world and i am going to get tested in a few day and my mom will be there with me. I just can't look at her face when it is proven i am positive. She doesnt even know im not a virgin. Im so scared.