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  • Posted By: MMMMForbiddenDonut
  • January 22, 2007
  • 06:16 AM

I was throwing this back and forth of which forum to post this on more, but reading about it I think this disorder falls into the category of a type of obsessive compulsive disorder.

How many people have heard of Body Integrity Identity Disorder? It is a very unknown disorder, but it does exist. I know several people who have it, including myself. BIID is defined as a strong desire, pretty much an obsession, to be disabled in some way, most often an amputee, and less often, a paralytic, blind or deaf. I fall into the latter category. Some people will actually use orthopedic devices to ease their feelings (like a compulsion). I have not reached that stage. if you want to read more about it check:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Body_identity_integrity_disorder

I am having a hard time dealing with it because I feel guilty and like a troll to have feelings like this. I do not have any idea how I can even bring this up in person to a loved one. Plus, with all I have been through this past year and then the development of this....it's too much. I contemplate suicide constantly because I cannot handle having such unusual thoughts and also because the desire for what I want is so strong, it's suffocating. I want it so bad. I am just curious to know if there are any other people out there who think they may have this because I would love to discuss with it others.

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  • I was throwing this back and forth of which forum to post this on more, but reading about it I think this disorder falls into the category of a type of obsessive compulsive disorder. Hello forbiddenDonut! (what a name :)I´m a BIID sufferer as well, in my thirties, from Europe. But I was able to start living my dream, though I had it a bit easier since my struggle has never been about an amputation.I want to disagree that BIID is a kind of obsessive compulsive disorder, it´s much more complex. BIID is am intersection of many things which is the reason why it is so hard to define and so hard to have sucessful counseling. Many BIID sufferers have personality disorders, I am not an exception and during the years we start to understand to a certain level why we suffer from this disorder, but in the end there is no final explanation and the desire will never go away.RegardspaishentX
    paishentX 2 Replies
    • January 28, 2007
    • 08:46 PM
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  • Hello forbiddenDonut! (what a name :) Yep! I love my Simpsons! I want to disagree that BIID is a kind of obsessive compulsive disorder, it´s much more complex. BIID is am intersection of many things which is the reason why it is so hard to define and so hard to have sucessful counseling. Many BIID sufferers have personality disorders, I am not an exception and during the years we start to understand to a certain level why we suffer from this disorder, but in the end there is no final explanation and the desire will never go away. RegardspaishentX Actually, I do not think it is a type of OCD, after actually doing some research on. I posted it on here for no explanable reason and have not felt like moving it to a different forum. I do believe it shares characteristics with it, just as I see similarities between BIID and BDD. Oh. Great. Now I have another thing to add to my list of never going away or having an explantion. I have not had any luck with any of the mental illnesses I have ever being treated. The most success I ever had was the first time I was ever put on anything and that lasted....2 months at the most. Well, I hope I start to understand this one day because it is driving me nuts right now because I just do not get how someone can have thoughts like this.
    MMMMForbiddenDonut 14 Replies
    • January 29, 2007
    • 03:26 AM
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  • Although I don't know very much about BIID, by the way you describe it it seems to me to be related to a past life. For what is worth, check this sitehttp://www.childpastlives.org/vBulletin/index.php There are many knowledgable people there who can give you advice.
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • February 11, 2007
    • 00:43 PM
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  • All of my life since childhood I have believed myself to be some kind of mad, sick, weird freak for wanting to remove what others see as fully working parts of my body, parts which I truly believe do not belong to me.I have carried these thoughts within me in private and in secret to the detriment of my mental well being for over 40yrs. During most of this time I thought that I was the only person in the world to have such thoughts, I have never heard it discussed or read about it anywhere until I recently aquired access to the web.Now I find I am not alone with these thoughts and that it has a name, that is something of a comfort to me.So now what? I still want to be rid of these parts! Will I receive counseling to persuade me that they do belong to me or will I be granted the surgery I so desperately need? I somehow doubt it, and anyhow the first bit of advice given for any even vaguely medical concern is to contact your own local doctor. A very difficult option in a small village where everyone knows everyone else.
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • February 26, 2007
    • 11:37 AM
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  • All of my life since childhood I have believed myself to be some kind of mad, sick, weird freak for wanting to remove what others see as fully working parts of my body, parts which I truly believe do not belong to me.Welcome to the club... This is just how virtually all of us have felt before finding out there are more of our kind. Regarding your living situation in a small village, why not trying to use the net to find a doctor to talk to? Or go to the next bigger city. You surely will find a way to talk to a doc or therapist without having your whole village getting knowledge about your condition.Regards
    paishentX 2 Replies
    • February 26, 2007
    • 07:54 PM
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  • To pashientX, thanks for the advice, I'll follow it up, but it really is important to me to realise I am not alone with my desires.
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  • Try EFT, I think it was pioneered by someone who has helped many people with obsesion and phobias. Do a google search on it. Emotional Freedom Therapy.I might work for you.
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • December 16, 2007
    • 01:43 AM
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  • You are not alone - I'm a BIID sufferer tooWhy don't you join this group: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/BIID_and_Admirers_Circle_of_Friends_/RegardsLily (DAK wannabe)
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  • Hello,I am a researcher at the University of Southern California’s Brain and Creativity Institute. I am interested in researching Body Integrity Identity Disorder, and I have created a survey to learn a little more about people’s experiences living with BIID. Participation is completely voluntary, and you must be 18 years old or older and speak English to participate. The survey should take about half an hour to complete. Once the results of this survey are gathered, the information will be used to help plan future BIID studies.If you would like to participate, please click on the following link or copy and paste it into your browser: https://usccollege.qualtrics.com/SE?SID=SV_0jJXFz2kpNf8ySU&SVID=Prod.If you have any questions or concerns, please contact me at ajjohnso@usc.eduThank you so much, and please feel free to forward this information along to other people who may be interested!- Alicia JohnsonBrain and Creativity InstituteUniversity of Southern California
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • December 1, 2009
    • 00:44 AM
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  • Oh my poor Chap Aliicia,this is your research ground. Great. An internet forum where you find your research themes.Well, as I wrote to you before. If you would enter the US Army you would get some moregood ideas for your future research and you would forget your pseudo "BIID" bla bla.Alicia, our conservative researcher for brand new problems. Good Luck for your valid studywith 1000 "suffers" from a mysterious illness named "BIID" and 100 suffers world wide.You will find out the truth, belife it.
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • January 26, 2010
    • 04:04 PM
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