Sometimes I can't get much sleep. It seems as though as soon as I lay down in bed my thought pattern starts to speed up and I can lay there till 3-4am then wake up around 6:30 till 7am. Other nights I can get 12+ hours sleep. When I don't get much sleep I can still function well. It's like I didn't really need the sleep.
Some days I can be depressed or irritable. Other days I'm perfectly normal. I sometimes fantasise about suicide. I would never actually do it but the thought goes into my head sometimes. My GP diagnosed me with depression 2 years ago. He did a few tests then gave me antidepressants (paroxetine I think it was) which I didn't like. Every 2 weeks I would need to increase my dose as my body seemed to get used to them. I was at 3 pills a day. Giving them up was very difficult. It isn't the sort of medication that I want to go on again.
I've been this way more or less since 16-17. I'm now 21. My question is, should I see my GP about depression again, or ask for a referral for a psychiatrist. I'm worried I might be bipolar, even though I don't know anyone in my family that is.