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What the heck is wrong with me?

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  • Posted By: FriedFish19
  • May 6, 2011
  • 07:44 PM

I'm 19, male and i have these symptoms:

- severe depression accompanied by frequent crying
- i don't like to leave my room and go out
- extreme irritability and outbursts of temper which sometimes is so severe that i become extremely aggressive and break objects
- i'm extremely sensitive, emotionally, and have feelings of deep hurt when someone criticizes me or is angry with me
- sometimes i can't understand what people say and have to ask them to repeat often (although with family members, i have no trouble figuring out what they say)
- sometimes my voice feels faint and i have to repeat myself a couple times when i'm conversing with others to make them understand
- i feel fatigued and tired most of the time and i have back aches all the time
- i have very poor hygiene and have to drag myself to take a bath and brush my teeth
- i'm very restless and keep pacing around even when doing stuff like brushing and i bite the inside of my cheek all the time. Also i keep saying and shouting odd stuff a lot of the time because i feel hyper
- i feel uncomfortable making eye contact with others
- i have an urge to walk with my head down when i go out
- i'm extremely jealous and refuse to date anyone because all i can think about is the infidelity, cheating, and lustful things that people do. i met a girl at church that i developed a sentimental attachment to but now i just hate her because she wears skin tight jeans
- i often have a phobia that something bad will "happen" to me or my loved ones. e.g. when i'm sitting in a cab, i'm afraid there will be an accident
- i fantasize a lot. i have no real friends so i fantasize about made up ones and imagine conversations with them in my head. i also fantasize about things like being famous, etc.

but mainly i want to get rid of the depression and aggressive behaviour. i have tried medication.. my pdoc put me on risperidone.. and it helped with the symptoms but i couldn't tolerate the side effects. I want to know what this disorder is and what meds will help..
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  • Its very hard to say what is wrong from your post. You need a one to one session with a mental health worker to work it out as the things you talk about can be part of many different issues and the symptoms you said are indicating different issues eg depression, anxiety etc which could be happening separate in someone or as part of a single another disorder. Following symptoms "could" be indicative of following things eg biting inside of cheek .. sign of nervousness/anxiety "keep pacing around even when doing stuff like brushing"... severe anxiety or Attention deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD) Not leaving the room and not liking to go out.. Anxiety, depression, Aspergers. sometimes i can't understand what people say and have to ask them to repeat often .. Aspergers " i'm extremely jealous and refuse to date anyone because all i can think about is the infidelity, cheating, and lustful things that people do. i met a girl at church that i developed a sentimental attachment to but now i just hate her because she wears skin tight jeans".... could be "black and white thinking" eg person is all good or all bad to you. Very moralistic.and black and white. could indicate Asperger's. Black and white thinking also happens in Borderline personality disorder. Borderline personality disorder people are also overly sensitive and loose emotional control easily (another symptom you had) but you dont mention some outstanding BPD things thou for it to likely to be that. " extreme irritability and outbursts of temper which sometimes is so severe that i become extremely aggressive and break objects" anger issue ... Asperger's .. irritability also features in depression " i feel fatigued and tired" "i have very poor hygiene and have to drag myself to take a bath and brush my teeth" Both those symptoms can feature in depression or Asperger's "Also i keep saying and shouting odd stuff a lot of the time because i feel hyper" bipolar ... Aspergers i'm very restless .. bipolar i feel uncomfortable making eye contact with others .. Aspergers "i often have a phobia that something bad will "happen" to me or my loved ones. e.g. when i'm sitting in a cab, i'm afraid there will be an accident" Anxiety ... The above thought is common in Asperger's who tend to over think things cause their minds are very analytical so all the "what if" kind of thoughts. "i fantasize a lot. i have no real friends so i fantasize about made up ones and imagine conversations with them in my head. i also fantasize about things like being famous, etc." Asperger's people often have no real friends. Those depressed too can have trouble with keeping friends........... You have too many different symptoms which could be too many different things and havent got your symptoms clearly pointing any way. Whatever you have wrong, it seems to me to be more then just Anxiety which you obviously do have and obviously Depression too but you have someone else wrong with you going by those symptoms as well.You do need to see a specialist to be assessed. I dont know from your post if this is it or not but wonder if there is other Asperger's things you do which you didnt write here eg rocking or repetitive movements. I suggest maybe research Asperger's anyway as several of your symptoms are also strongly featured Asperger's eg not liking eye contact, hard to make friends.. to see if there is other Asperger's symptoms you have. Asperger's people commonly have coexisting issues such as depression and anxiety. Be aware that if you do have something like Asperger's.. it can be hard to get diagnosed as not many specialise in that area and it often can take a specialist to diagnose it. http://www.wrongplanet.net/ is the biggest online Asperger's forum if you want to check that out. best luck in finding out what it is you have other then the anxiety and depression you do have as possibly part of something else.
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