I'm trying to verify and re-verify some suspicions I've developed over the years and was wondering what others' opinions might be. I'm asking you if you can tell me if the symptons I have sound like a disorder, and if so, what disorder (don't read my other posts yet)?
I am 40 y/o
Dad left at age 3
Mother pathologically domineering - scars still here today
No criminal record but only thing that seems to stop me from commiting some major crimes is the deterence factor; it isn't logical to do. Doesn't everyone see it that way? My mother "reared" (brainwashed) me to stay out of trouble absolutely.
I was diagnosed with severe adult ADD about 4 years ago
prescribed wellbutrin and celexa - a miracle combination that all but wiped out the foggy mind I've always had
did not relieve very high impulsivity (never pay bills, poor money management, bad credit, move around a lot, no friends beyond the superficial levels, never finish what I start, frequent job changes, etc.)
Words like empathy, sympathy, and remorse sound just like Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, and Cinderella. They don't exist as far as I can tell. Everyone just fakes it.
Highly goal oriented and competitive
Seem concerned about my looks more than most guys
I just don't care about anything or anyone but myself
I'm a social chameleon who always deftly presents myself as who I think the person I'm talking to wants me to be. This is my strongest personal talent.
Finally, if a disorder, is there a way to get treatment anonymously?