Ok, I've had a problem with certain music for awhile now. The music I'm having trouble with is music from Kiss FM. Examples: That Girlfriend song, "Don't use wish your girlfriend was hot like me", "Lips of an Angel" and basicly the music that is of now days.
In 7th grade I had to back up in a corner, because I didn't like it. They played it in percussion. I didn't have bad thoughts though.
In 8th grade I started to feel worse and knew something was wrong. Eventually, I started to have bad thoughts after I heard the music. Things like death thoughts and a few times those thoughts/feelings were disliking God (trust me I'd never dislike him in a normal state of mind). In 8th grade I noticed it lingered for me longer than it used to. Meaning I didn't think about those thoughts before, in 6th or 7th, but now I have and they've gotton worse.
In 9th grade ('m in 9th grade now) I had to hear a certain song. I thought I could put away my CD player, because I thought we were getting off of the bus.... big mistake. I'm pretty sure by the end of the day/next day I had bad thoughts.
Now if I'm under too much pressure I may end up thinking bad thoughts. (I know this because my homework was putting me under too much pressure.) A little bit while before now ( I'm pretty sure yesterday or the day before) I didn't know how much more I could take.
I'm not thinking those thoughts now, but once I go back to school I'll be put under way too much pressure.
So, does anyone know what's wrong with me? Is anymore info. needed to help figure my problem out?