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What's wrong with me? Can someone please help me?

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  • Posted By: Anonymous
  • September 2, 2007
  • 05:25 PM

Ok, I've had a problem with certain music for awhile now. The music I'm having trouble with is music from Kiss FM. Examples: That Girlfriend song, "Don't use wish your girlfriend was hot like me", "Lips of an Angel" and basicly the music that is of now days.

In 7th grade I had to back up in a corner, because I didn't like it. They played it in percussion. I didn't have bad thoughts though.

In 8th grade I started to feel worse and knew something was wrong. Eventually, I started to have bad thoughts after I heard the music. Things like death thoughts and a few times those thoughts/feelings were disliking God (trust me I'd never dislike him in a normal state of mind). In 8th grade I noticed it lingered for me longer than it used to. Meaning I didn't think about those thoughts before, in 6th or 7th, but now I have and they've gotton worse.

In 9th grade ('m in 9th grade now) I had to hear a certain song. I thought I could put away my CD player, because I thought we were getting off of the bus.... big mistake. I'm pretty sure by the end of the day/next day I had bad thoughts.

Now if I'm under too much pressure I may end up thinking bad thoughts. (I know this because my homework was putting me under too much pressure.) A little bit while before now ( I'm pretty sure yesterday or the day before) I didn't know how much more I could take.

I'm not thinking those thoughts now, but once I go back to school I'll be put under way too much pressure.

So, does anyone know what's wrong with me? Is anymore info. needed to help figure my problem out?

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  • I'm 21 years old and was recently diagnosed with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD). I believe you may have it as well. I have obsessed over things my whole life, from washing hands, to making sure the water was cut off, to erasing holes in my schoolpapers because I didn't like the way the letters looked. As I've gotten older, I have had serious problems with bad thoughts in a religious sense. I have had religious struggles my whole life, but I nearly had a nervous breakdown at 13, and earlier this year, it got so bad that I was taken to the ER. I felt that shapes would trigger me to have a bad thought about religious things or that I already did have dislike towards God or something and that if I let myself look at certain things it would be allowing that thought to take form, or something. Sometimes it's unclear even to me what I think.Please email if you'd like to talk more about your condition. I'm not a doctor, but I have OCD, and my mother used to work in the psychiatric ward of a hospital, so we're familiar with psychiatric conditions. I really want to help you figure out what's going on. And no, OCD, if you have it, doesn't mean your "crazy" and it is treatable, both through medicine or therapy.My email is manga_rocks68 (at) yahoo (dot) comSincerely,Hannah
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    • October 12, 2007
    • 07:16 PM
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