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What's up with me - please help

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  • Posted By: Anonymous
  • February 15, 2007
  • 07:34 PM

Im almost 18 and in college - i get very stressed easily. i dont talk my family much anymore even though i live with them everyday. i try to keep away from them as much as possible bcuz i no i do their head in. sumitimes i like them and sumtimes i h8 them, but i can not say i love them that much anymore. I SH and have been for 4 years now - im scared of myself and dont no wot im capable of - well i didnt no anyway. but now i no i can kill myself bcuz i have tried a few times now - i dont want to be here anymore :(.

once i was in bed and it woz about 3am and i herd sum1 talkin to me - as i opened my eyes i cud stil hear them - im so scared - i dont wanna b like this - i jus wanna b normal, like everyone else.

i have always been in denial for these 4 years but now im first starting to accept that i mite b depressed. a couple of ppl hav sed i am but i neva wanted to believe it. my oldest sister wants to take me to the docs to get on antidepressants, but twice now there has been sum reason for me not to go - wel i dont need to go - im fine - i have managed for so long already, why change now?

Sometimes i feel as though im not realli here and cant believe, wen things happen and im actually there. i have felt like this for a long time but after reading about certain mental illnesses, i found a lot of the physical and mental symptoms i have are linked to Borderline Personality Disorder, Anxiety, Manic Depression and Paranoia. I cant believe it - surely im not the only one to feel this way.

i used to be bulimic - so i have dun alot of sh*t throughout the years and it takes the p*** realli. another thinig dat does me head in, is wen i do summit rong - i apologise and ppl keep saying to stop saying sorri - but if i have dun summit rong i shud apologise, no matter how big or small. they keep saying im too apologetic (cant spell) but thats jus me.

i seem to be jus lettin it all out now bcuz i have got started - i have had a couple of panic attacks b4 in public - i neva knew it was a panic attack wen i had them but me friend told me do i hav them often and i didnt no wot she ment until she told me wot i had.

sorri about blabbering on abit - this isnt everything bcuz i didnt wanna bore u. i dont no how u can help me - or maybe im jus trying to find other ppl to tel me wots rong wiv me

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  • Go See A Good Doctor Asap!!!!!They Can Help!!!!
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • February 16, 2007
    • 06:20 PM
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  • fresh air and exercise,a more demanding job, or perhaps just a job some voluntary work to reduce your self absorbtion,start some training so that you will be some use to others,throw away your television and electronic games,cycle ten miles a day or run five or swim two .if that doesnt make you start to feel better,do all three.rebuild your relationship with your family by solving some problems for them instead of creating them. shut up and smile.start with the garden or decorating or just housework and cooking.your final goal should be to solve the emotional and financial problems you have caused them.....how much do you think it costs to bring up a kid?find easierproblems to solve for them,initially.save money ,eliminate debt,eliminate addictions.develop some respect for the english language.read,draw,paint,learn some words you didnt already know when you were eight. .attend to your poor posture(how do i know?ho ho!)put others first.this last being the most important.
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • February 26, 2007
    • 01:02 PM
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  • Im almost 18 and in college - i get very stressed easily. i dont talk my family much anymore even though i live with them everyday. i try to keep away from them as much as possible bcuz i no i do their head in. sumitimes i like them and sumtimes i h8 them, but i can not say i love them that much anymore. I SH and have been for 4 years now - im scared of myself and dont no wot im capable of - well i didnt no anyway. but now i no i can kill myself bcuz i have tried a few times now - i dont want to be here anymore :(.once i was in bed and it woz about 3am and i herd sum1 talkin to me - as i opened my eyes i cud stil hear them - im so scared - i dont wanna b like this - i jus wanna b normal, like everyone else.i have always been in denial for these 4 years but now im first starting to accept that i mite b depressed. a couple of ppl hav sed i am but i neva wanted to believe it. my oldest sister wants to take me to the docs to get on antidepressants, but twice now there has been sum reason for me not to go - wel i dont need to go - im fine - i have managed for so long already, why change now?Sometimes i feel as though im not realli here and cant believe, wen things happen and im actually there. i have felt like this for a long time but after reading about certain mental illnesses, i found a lot of the physical and mental symptoms i have are linked to Borderline Personality Disorder, Anxiety, Manic Depression and Paranoia. I cant believe it - surely im not the only one to feel this way.i used to be bulimic - so i have dun alot of sh*t throughout the years and it takes the p*** realli. another thinig dat does me head in, is wen i do summit rong - i apologise and ppl keep saying to stop saying sorri - but if i have dun summit rong i shud apologise, no matter how big or small. they keep saying im too apologetic (cant spell) but thats jus me.i seem to be jus lettin it all out now bcuz i have got started - i have had a couple of panic attacks b4 in public - i neva knew it was a panic attack wen i had them but me friend told me do i hav them often and i didnt no wot she ment until she told me wot i had.sorri about blabbering on abit - this isnt everything bcuz i didnt wanna bore u. i dont no how u can help me - or maybe im jus trying to find other ppl to tel me wots rong wiv mehi i first would like u to no that i recognize with alot of what u have i carnt spell. i need you to no ur not the only 1 with this and it is normal because u feel it. u need to seek help but only when u can admit to ur self that there is something wrong no one else can make u wen u dont wont to becoz it just wont work i carnt tell u wot u have or dont have but u seem to be a good person and have friend that care. i ramble to sorry the only thing i can say is that it is ur life u are strong u are amazing becoz u are u and u only in this wourld can control ur life. u no the saying that wat eva u wont u can get. thats true u just need to take a hold on your life and have ppl there to help it is your life and u can change it. good luck to u and i will send u good thoughts just hold on to wat u can please.
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  • fresh air and exercise,a more demanding job, or perhaps just a job some voluntary work to reduce your self absorbtion,start some training so that you will be some use to others,throw away your television and electronic games,cycle ten miles a day or run five or swim two .if that doesnt make you start to feel better,do all three.rebuild your relationship with your family by solving some problems for them instead of creating them. shut up and smile.start with the garden or decorating or just housework and cooking.your final goal should be to solve the emotional and financial problems you have caused them.....how much do you think it costs to bring up a kid?find easierproblems to solve for them,initially.save money ,eliminate debt,eliminate addictions.develop some respect for the english language.read,draw,paint,learn some words you didnt already know when you were eight. .attend to your poor posture(how do i know?ho ho!)put others first.this last being the most important.who ever you are read wat the young gentalmen has typed an read wat u typed an ask yourself if you should have commented on this the young lad is poorly and u probably just made it a hundred times worse. and he shouldnt have to sort out there problems adult child dose this make any sence to u and they choose to have a child why should he repay them for that u have just told him that all he is is an exspens i apologise to u sweety for whoevar this is just dismmis it.
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  • an eighteen year old is not a child ,he is a man.the sooner he starts facing his responsibilities to himself and to others the happier he is going to be.first,he has to give his body the demanding exercise it craves.failure to do so willcause poor self esteem and depression.then he must attend to the needs of others,and if he can in the process start to mend the relationships he has damaged,so much the better.failure in this will lead once again to poor self esteem and depression.he must earn money and save .that is elementary.he must eliminate debt,and the same goes for addictions.self pity must go.it is the most poisonous of all things to a mans health and dignity.it does not surprise me to hear that others are in the same mess for the same reasons.there is a lot of this sort of thing about;it is not what made america great.it is not even what made belgium great ! it is simple really,if you dont like how you are feeling,change what you are doing.if you dont like being vigorous,fit healthy,solvent,active,optimistic ,clever ,popular and friendly,you can always go back to slouching,sleeping,smoking and feeling sorry for yourself.oh yes,and looking at the ceiling,that comes into it too.-----and one last thing,learning to spell is very easy.you just have to check every word you want to use before you write it down.(the other method,that of using only the simplest words,is ultimately a self thwarting strategy,because it will hold back your vocabulary development,and interfere with your mental development.as with everything in life it is best to confront this difficulty,with determination to overcome it.this is the best advice you will ever get:it is given truthfully and sympathetically.
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