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Weird Behavior at School. Normal?

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  • Posted By: SSychedelicSSheep
  • December 5, 2006
  • 10:59 PM

Hey, well, in general in not so sure i'm totally right in the head anymore. Lots of things are going on since I left 8th grade. I'm pretty sure it has something to do with mental illness (I've read up on things, i'm not just guessing about it. I can tell). And anyways, i'm in a public highschool, which isn't exactly working out for me. Anyways, something strange happened a few weeks ago in school.

Halfway through the day, i started getting abdominal pains and cramps, not so bad though. But it progressivly got worse over time. There isn't really anything I could do about it, so i just toughed through it. Finally at 6th period (2nd to last period of the day. Around 12:50) It got really worse, like within minutes. The whole freshmen grade was supposed to go down to the gym or somewhere, to listen to speeches and vote president, but i didnt go down because i felt too weird, and the teacher didnt notice. So, its culinary, and my group of three go to the other side of the room, and start making what we are supposed to make. I start feeling worse, like dizzy and lightheaded, and stomach/abdomen area hurt a lot. I couldnt really stand staight and was shaking. When I looked at anything, or thought of anything it made me feel even worse, so i stopped helping, and looked around trying to to pay attention to anything. Then the teacher came over and asked if i was ok, and if i wanted to sit down or go to the nurse. So i said id go to the nurse (in a shakey quiet voice. felt like it wasnt even me contronling how i was talking). So i went over, and she had to write me a pass, and i sat down for a second, then got up and went with someone (because i was ready to fall over) and the nurse was all the way on the other side of the school, and half the way to there, i started feeling like i was floating or something. I looked down at my shoes and thought "Woah, how and why am I walking? This is weird, i feel i have no controll over my legs, its not even me" And i felt weird cold sensations over me.I felt cold water dripping on my arms and face, and it was creepy. I finally got to the nurse, and there wasnt chairs so i stood, and i was shaking and frantic, and i couldnt really stand (i felt really drowsy and dizzy and confused) and my knees/legs kept giving out so i nearly was falling. I called my mother, but she was doing something. So i sat outside the office for about an hour or two, i think. I sort of felt, i lost time because i wasnt sure if it had been two days or 4 minutes or an hour or what. and i felt like, possesed almost. and i sat out there, and my eyes were totally freaking out and franticlly looking everywhere and rolling into my head and looking everywhere really fast. It was scary, but i wasnt thinking the whole time. i wasnt even thinking that it was weird or that i hurt. After wards, around 2:00 i got on the bus to go home, and i felt pretty much fine when i was on the bus and got home. It only lasted a few hours, from the 6th period class, to going home on the bus. It was very weird, and it felt more mental than physical. like, more things were going on in my head.

I'ver never experienced something like that before, and for some reason, something is making me feel like i do want it to happen again (perhaps minus the bodyily pain and cramping). But looking at commen sense, says no one would want to experience that. But i dont know. This could be something normal, I dont know. It felt like, if someone was looking at me, they would nt really think it was anything, maybe a cold or whatever, and everything is slow and normal and calm. but if you went inside my head, everything was going 700 miles an hour, and total chaos and confusion. I really dislike that school anyways, its not for me. I hope someone responds to this, I would like to see what others think of it. Thank You.


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  • omg! the same thing happens to me!!!!!!!! this is so wierd...sometimes things just speed up and i can hear myself talking and everything and it sounds slow kinda but everything else seems to be going at the same speed but it is RACING through my mind. I know I sound crazy and I can't really explain it but it is really really wierd!
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • December 6, 2006
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  • You experienced some mental disorder symptoms: Syncope: The loss of time. Disassociative States: Sense of general unreality, loss of connection with body. Racing Thoughts: Pretty self explanatory. And the part where you did not recognize your own voice or wondered who was moving your legs, and felt posseesed is both disassociative and a schizophrenic symptom. The stomach cramps don't normally go along consistently with any disorder that I know of. Did you eat anything on the bus or at the nurse office? The shaking, weak knees, and mental distortions could be from hypoglycemia, diabetes, or similiar medical conditions that effect blood sugar. If you do not have one of these conditions, then you have some symptoms of a mental disorder, but not a full-blown disorder. Most of these symptoms match schizophrenia, which usually does not occur until early 20s. So, you probably don't have it. At worst, you have some early onset of future schizophrenia. I would warn you though, not to indulge these experiences if they happen again. Try to use willpower to resist them, don't just float along with them, otherwise they will probably get worse.
    Non Servium 85 Replies
    • December 6, 2006
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  • Thanks a lot Non Servium. I don't think I ate anything after that, maybe later at my house. But I wasn't hungry, looking at the food made me feel real sick. The nurse might have given me a tylenol at her office, but that's about it. I haven't been "evaluated" or gone to a psychiatrist (sp?) ever before but i'm think i may have something wrong (even disregarding this happening). But i really don't want to see a doctor like that, and i know its bad to just leave yourself be when you should consult someone about it. (By the way, the stomach cramps could have possibly been because of, um "womenly-ness" time of month. But i dont really think so, because it was a duller pain, then wicked bad at 6th period and after that. I don't know if i was menustrating (sp?) at the time, i dont think so. so that probably has nothing to do with it, just a thought though.) About the experience, I'm not sure if when It was happening, if i enoyed it or whatever, maybe im just thinking that now (that happens alot sort of, I will remember any event or something that has happened, and think of what i felt then, but then im not sure if thats how i really felt, or if i just somehow think thats how i felt. like just "put" that feeling into the memory instead of the real feeling i had. i dont know. ive had trouble lately, trying to distinguish what my feelings are. i can tell if its a real overwhelming or a deep feeling, just not what feeling it is. usually) anyways, like i was saying, im not sure if i did enjoy it, i dont remember what i was feeling or thinking. But now, for some odd reason, i feel like i would like it, despite knowing i hated the pain (in my torso area), and the nausea.Sometimes, when I have certain things happening, not like that, but i guess soemtimes i get into a certain state of mind or whatever, and I feel kind of like someone else, and almost imagine it, and imagine a "sickness" taking me over and eating away at me. But I like it, it feels like, warm and inviting. I don't really remember certain times of doing this though. I probably would have imagined that during what happened in school, if i wasnt in such pain. But perhaps i did think that, but just dont remember. This probably isn't a good thing to do, but it's almost like, a craving. I think i really liked that occurance that happened in school, its makes me feel, like im being loved i guess. Its agood feeling
    SSychedelicSSheep 16 Replies
    • December 6, 2006
    • 08:21 PM
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  • I haven't been "evaluated" or gone to a psychiatrist (sp?) ever before but i'm think i may have something wrong (even disregarding this happening). But i really don't want to see a doctor like that, and i know its bad to just leave yourself be when you should consult someone about it. I could not agree more about avoiding the "professionals." Once a mental illness goes on your record you are stigmatized for life unless you have money for a lawyer to somehow sue to clear your record. Psychiatric drugs can have damaging side-effects and rarely if ever cure the underlying problem. Many people go in just to "get checked out" and end up railroaded into decades of drugs etc or even institutionalized. Misdiagnosis is rampant and abuse of the patient-doctor relationship is common. If at all possible, treat yourself through a holistic regime of nutrition, exercise, constructive introspection, and spirituality. Seek out 1st hand accounts of mental illness at the bookstore, written by the sufferrers themselves, not second hand interpretations by eggheads who have agendas. E-mail me if you want tips on these or to chat about other non-drug therapies- Teamnorm@aol.com PS: drop the ***l out of that lame school! Well, maybe not drop out ... but ... call in sick often, the place really seems to be cramping your style (Cramping? Get it? sorry ...)
    Non Servium 85 Replies
    • December 7, 2006
    • 01:51 AM
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  • Yeah I've never been on medication (Well, because i havent seen any doctor,s and no one really even knows ive been different, i the head, except my friend) but i never want to be. I hate stuff like that, and it changes things in your brain and stuff, werid, no thanks. But yeah, the drug-alternative methods are better. And yeah, i hate this school. I went to an awesome small school, were all the teachers were friends and nice, real laid back there. This place is public, and like 40 times bigger than my other school, and about 10 times as many kids. I really hate it, and am trying to get into a agricultural school for ther rest of highschool, if they accept me. they didnt except me for freshman year, because my mom drove me to school late everyday, and it is on my record. Now i have to get good grades, to even have a chance of getting into that school, which is hard because this school is killing me.Thanks for responding though, i didnt really think anyone would. And normally they would be opposing and preaching and ***t. But you seem like a cool person, thanks.""Seek out 1st hand accounts of mental illness at the bookstore, written by the sufferrers themselves, not second hand interpretations by eggheads who have agendas""What kind of books? Theres so many different kinds about that! i already have a couple, im real interested in psychology.And yeah, i dont really know what to do. I'm real real super glad i am able to talk to my friend though, i would totally be a lot worse and *****d up if he wasnt here. Even just talking to him makes me feel awesome. I guess ill just sit around, until something serious happens. I dont know what to do, just wait i guess.Cool, you can email me if you want. It's ZZombieSSheep@fridaythe13thfilms.com (its my backup email, hotmail isnt working on my comp. right now. use that one)
    SSychedelicSSheep 16 Replies
    • December 7, 2006
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  • Wow, SSychedelicSSheep, that sounds like what used to happen to me during times leading up to my periods. 10 days of mostly what you described on and off with varying degrees of severity depending on how much stress I was also under at the time. I thought I was going insane :confused: until I read about PMT of the worse kind; and I had the worse kind. I also became very volatile, angry and violent during this time. I ended up having to be put on the pill on and off for about seventeen years.My emotional state was made worse as I was also aware that I was a boy with a girls body and resented having periods to start, but to then realize many years later I had bad PMT that only 5% of the female population suffered!!! and to add injury to insult had to have birth control pills!!!!I too felt possessed through the strange out of body sort of feeling.I had a couple of attacks as bad as yours, but fortunately most were mild attacks.I also had a couple of GTT (glucose tolerance tests) but nothing showed to be abnormal. But later I found that what was considered in normal range by the docs wasn’t, as they totally ignored my insulin readings that indicated I was insulin resistant or had insulin resistance syndrome (IRS). So unaware of my IRS I thought I must just be loosing my mind. Most doctors are totally unaware of the serious implications of IRS. I first started to show signs of IRS at the age of 12; then with the onset of periods at 13 I felt I was going mad like you feel, and it was all pretty much down hill from that point; emotionally and physically. Being a kid at the time I was called a hypochondriac and/or everything was put down to growing pains or attention seeking. Not that the hypochondriac accusations changed when I grew up.I loathed school, but hey, I was made to wear dresses and forced to be a girl; I hated being alive, let alone go through the gender segregation and stereotyping of school. :eek: I am free of PMT now as I went on testosterone for my gender reassignment in 2000 and had my ovaries removed and I am now 37. But I had PMT for about 18 years; for the first 10 years I was unaware I had PMT. PMT robbed me of so much happiness. And the doctors’ ignorance and arrogance also contributed to the lost years. But testosterone is not an option for the non transsexed female like yourself. If you do suffer PMT and/or IRS, you have options, and the natural ones are the best. Seek out a good naturopath and/or acupuncturist who can give you Chinese medicine and bring your hormones, insulin and emotions back into line. Puberty really can cause havoc to some individuals. My PMT literally would make me hysterical and very suicidal in my thinking. I had most of the symptoms of hyperglycemia from the IRS and the PMT.But through it all, though I am a man, I am glad for the experience as I can relate to what women have to go through with their bodies and arrogant doctors. You have my total understanding at least with the physical and doctor stuff.I wish you all the best for your future and that you never have to go through what I and many others have because we don’t find out what is wrong with us till many, many years later.And School? Try to stick it out, focus on the stuff you enjoy and realize that you only have to put up with it for a couple more years (unless you want to go to uni). I let family influence what subjects I did, I wished I hadn’t and had had the courage to say NO. They literally had expectations of me becoming something like a brain surgeon or vet. I wanted to do art, biology and carpentry and thus spent the last four years of my schooling in even more misery doing what others wanted of me and in the end totally stuffed up my schooling and grades.All the best,Agape, :) Searchingsam.
    searchingsam 54 Replies
    • December 7, 2006
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  • Hon, make sure that there's nothing physically wrong with you first.A lot of people are misdiagnosed as being mental, without even considering the possibility of a physical condition.It sounds like maybe a vascular, or neurological, if it's not mental.Get that checked out first.Get one of those little bitty spiral notebooks to carry with you.If this ever happens to you again, write down EVERYTHING you feel, no matter how weird, or if you think it's unrelated.Every emotion. Every weird feeling and thought. Good luck, and if you do get diagnosed with something, let us know!:-DSheena
    ShawneeGirl 37 Replies
    • December 8, 2006
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  • Yeah. I did write everything down when i got on the bus, but its hard to read now, half of it isn't even reconizable. But yeah, of course it could be non-mental. But I guess I just assumed, because other mentally related things have been going on. But it definitely could be non-related at all.
    SSychedelicSSheep 16 Replies
    • December 8, 2006
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  • Check your back-up e-mail SS!
    Non Servium 85 Replies
    • December 10, 2006
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  • Sorry, wasn't thinking of that. I've checked it and responded now.
    SSychedelicSSheep 16 Replies
    • December 10, 2006
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  • What were you making in culinary class?The types of symptoms, the age of onset, and the way it attacks at its worst in a stressful environment leads me to believe it is a food intolerence. Also, I think that because it sounds a lot like my freshman year, and I've finally figured out why those weird feelings and pains were always there.There are several types of foods that don't always fully break down in digestion. The body can start to get angry at these proteins because they damage the digestive system and create opium-like chemicals that sneak into the blood and go straight to the brain. Some people report having a reaction from handling or even smelling the food. The body typically creates antibodies to attack the food, and over years, the body's immune reaction can cause a wide range of physical and psychological symptoms and diseases that are rarely diagnosed correctly.It could explain why you have stomach pains when you're in a stressful environment (the way the pain only comes with stress, most doctors want to call it psychological even though a very real physical reaction is going on.) "started getting abdominal pains and cramps, not so bad though. But it progressivly got worse over time" ... "But I wasn't hungry, looking at the food made me feel real sick." Do you have any unusual bowel movements accompanying this? Diarrhea OR constipation could be a sign of this - odd how two opposites could point to the same thing, another reason why its rarely diagnosed. Nausea is also a good clue, ie: the way the look and/or smell of food makes you feel ill.The opioid peptides created by partial digestion can explain the sense of detachment/unrealness. Depending on the strength of the gut wall and how much of the offending food you consume, the daily dosage of opium-like peptides could be a few miligrams - similar to a single prescribed dose of pain medication. Its definately an addictive substance, 'warm and inviting even.'"Sometimes, when I have certain things happening, not like that, but i guess soemtimes i get into a certain state of mind or whatever, and I feel kind of like someone else, and almost imagine it, and imagine a "sickness" taking me over and eating away at me. But I like it, it feels like, warm and inviting."The main foods known to do this are gluten (wheat, rye, barley), corn, soy, milk, nuts (but most of what we call nuts are legumes), and potatos. Unfortunately, there are hundreds of things that could cause it that are rarer (peppers, spices, types of meat, herbs).So if you want to talk to a doctor but you don't want a bunch of mind-altering drugs or some kind of psychiatric label, try talking to an allergy specialist. They can order some blood tests and look for proof of this theory. You can also just research the offending foods and try an allergen free diet (leafy greens, no sauces/dressings, unseasoned meat, fresh fruit). If you feel any improvement or even change, you can slowly (every week or two) add in allergens while keeping a record, until you figure out which one it is. One problem with the diet is, if you cut the food out for a while, the doctors can't see that you have a problem with it anymore. It will be completely impossible for them to diagnose you unless you eat the thing that makes you sick again for six months. People are skeptical of the condition, so its harder to get people to support you without some kind of official doctor's opinion backing you up. Avoiding common foods involves a lot of social difficulty (since food is such a universal social event) and eating away from home can cause a lot of anxiety. Whatever you decide, its important to get support from your friends and family. Try to find out if there is any family history of similar issues and if any causes were ever discovered.
    Azaral 152 Replies
    • December 10, 2006
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  • I think they made wheat bread french toast. I got some afterwards, after class and ate it at my house a couple days later. its weird, you would think if it was food-related that it would happen more often because people are always around food. I didnt have any constipation problems of anything like that, and im not sure if my family has anything like this, related. i dont think so though. And just a sidenote, that by the way my younger cousin on my moms side has ADD, maybe something else. and my older cousin on my dads side has bipolar i think, maybe something else. and my father might even have something, i dont know, nothing diagnosed at least. Thanks Azaral
    SSychedelicSSheep 16 Replies
    • December 11, 2006
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  • What do I do? I mean, not just for this occurance, but everything that has been going on. I'm definitely not my old self anymore, which I think may be a good thing. But then that could just be this "thing" making me think that. Maybe I should like, talk to one of those therapist people? I have one, but I normally talked to her about school and stuff when i was younger. I'm kind of embarassed about going to her though, just the stupid things you say and do and cry about and whatever when I was younger so thats why i wouldnt want to see her. But maybe it would be good because she knows me longer and can see how ive changed, but that may be a bad thing that she can see that ive changed. I'm kinda scared of therapists, and i am paranoid a lot, so id get paranoid and even maybe suspicous (sp?) of her. I get real embarressed, so maybe i should get a different therapist and start new. then also that way the new one wouldnt know about me before. although this one is nice, id feel kinda bad. i havent seen her i maybe a year, and that was before all this weird things started happening (i havent posted things that have been happening. im not really talking about the thing that happened at school. im talking about mental things and weirdness going on.) I'm glad that I talk to my friend though, hes pretty interested in mental illness (maybe not as much as me, i dont know) and he may even have something wrong, but if he does indeed, his parents know i thin kand help him out and whatever, its nothing real bad. But anyways, i talk to him a lot and he says it seems like, kinda Bipolar or something. hes pretty intelligent. its not like im going to say i have bipolar now, because just cause someone says it seems like it doesnt mean its really what it is.Geez, i dont know what to do. I'm scared.
    SSychedelicSSheep 16 Replies
    • December 22, 2006
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  • hmm a few pointers. 1-umm first of all azaral pointed to some thing really intresting. have not personally heard of it before but it's worth serious consideration. it "can" be physical. you should first rule that out then worry about mental disorders. 2- assuming the whole expirience "was" completely psychological, which may well not be considering you haven't consulted a physician yet, you should not be worried about having a mental disorder yet. checking up the criteria of most of all mental disorders, you'd notice that they all require symptoms to persist over a duration of time. some three months, some six months some even more. one episode of pathologic "sick" symptoms does "not" by any diagnostic criteria prove you being mentally sick sweetheart. Many people have had only one episode of panic attacks, temporary delusion, hallucination, or even dissociations from reality but are by no means suffering from any mental disorder. SO GET THE THOUGHT OF BEING MENTALLY SICK OUT OF YOUR HEAD! IT HAS NO GROUNDS! and it can harm you self in itself :-)
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • December 26, 2006
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  • Oh yeah. I know, i'm not really talking about this. This thing that happened was just some stupid thing that happened once, and i wasnt really talkingabout. (thats why i should stop posting on this topic i wrote, i think its getting confusing, since im not talking about the thign that happened in school anymore. so ill just stop posting on this topic) Yeah, im not going to base some major on that one little thing that happened. im just saying, lots of things going on, and thoughts and feeling that arent right. that have been going on for months. so yeah, im not talking about what i originally posted before. so, ill stop posting here, and if i have something to ask or whatever, ill make a new one. sorry for the confusion. Peace
    SSychedelicSSheep 16 Replies
    • December 27, 2006
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  • The symptoms seem similar to a panic attack and since you were at school and about to go to a assembly I would suggest social anxiety as the cause of the panic symptoms. Other social anxiety symptoms are avoidence of social interaction , such as avoiding acquaintances in the street or hallway, avoiding eye contact during conversation or difficulties answereng the phone.
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  • You might want to go to a neurologist and have them run an MRI to make sure there isn't anything wrong with your brain "wiring". Though MRIs can also be quite useful in testing for mental disorders by examining the brain structure.As for wanting this to happen again- don't. Mental illness rarely remains "desirable" or "limited" in scope- it gets progressively worse and often becomes psychologically paralyzing. It sounds to me like you wanted the attention, or you wanted to get out of a school function, and so you like the idea of having a problem that facilitates it. This will only harm you in the end- people won't take you seriously if you aren't diagnosed with anything, and they'll treat you like a "crazy" if you are. It's sad but even with all the developments in psychology, people still shun and speak down on those with psychological disorders.If you feel you have a genuine problem, or even a problem with school or your life in general, speak to a psychologist about it. DON'T opt for a Psychiatrist however, as then you'll just be given drugs and little else. If you have issues, they need to be dealt with and if you have disorders, you need to learn how to control them- psychiatrists would rather just give you a medicine to sedate you hoping that, as a walking zombie, you won't have the problems-along with any energy for that matter.
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  • Ah, I see you mentioned therapists-sorry I didn't read your later posts. Don't be scared of them. It can be intimidating telling all kinds of personal thoughts, secrets, and feelings to a (more or less) total stranger, but psychologists are specially trained to deal with it, and to help you deal with it. All day long they hear patients tell them things, so don't think your stuff is "the worst"- chances are they've heard MUCH worse. Child Psycologists know how kids are, they know what kids go through. Think of them as a friend you can tell everything to, but at the same time, a friend who isn't going to tell all your other friends your secrets, and a friend who isn't going to think badly of you because of what you say. But it really is important you find a GOOD psycologist; if you don't like the one you see-for whatever reason-tell your parents you want a different one. It's crucial that you feel comfortable with them. I think that someone who admits they have problems and seeks help for them is courageous. It's good to know you accept the idea of having a problem, and mention the idea of seeing a therapist- you seem like a very intelligent young person with a good perspective on their life. Talk to one, tell them all your troubles, and try to take the advice they give.I also think it's GREAT that you don't like the idea of medication (at least from your postings in another topic). Psychological medications can be useful with some disorders, but for the most part, they never actually accomplish what behavioural modification can do. They disguise the problem instead of fixing it, and the patient ends up addicted to them because they don't think it's possible to function normally withOUT medication.
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  • The symptoms seem similar to a panic attack and since you were at school and about to go to a assembly I would suggest social anxiety as the cause of the panic symptoms. Other social anxiety symptoms are avoidence of social interaction , such as avoiding acquaintances in the street or hallway, avoiding eye contact during conversation or difficulties answereng the phone.Yeah, that sounds legitimate, although I wasn't the one that would be speaking. And I know I am a very shy person, even with friends, and get embarassed about things even though I know I shouldn't because they are my friends. But the things you stated do apply to me, like avoiding people, even friends if I see them either outside or outside of school (although this doesn't exactly apply now, since I am in highschool now, but if I was at my last school for middle school, theres one friend I would try not to run into in the halls or whatever, and especailly outside of school . But mainly that one friend for some reason, I think it is because I am really and very embarrased about myself before, since I met him in 7th grade, and i was a fool then and regret most things I did because I acted so dumb and immature, especially around him, i am so embarrassed i barely want to talk to him or see him, although I would like to without fear because I know he is a good friend) but anyways, I do avoid looking at other's eyes most of the time, even though sometimes I tell myself that I am going to look into their eyes this time, or atleast try, but I can't no matter what I do, it's pretty dumb. Although like today, someone (not even a friend, just a classmate) asked me to tell him what color his eyes were, and I looked right into them and told him, but i didn't feel nervous or anything at all. And I don't like answering the phone, especially if it is that one friend I was talking about, but we rarely use phones cause its sort of werid to talk to each other like that, we mainly use letters or AIM. But I am very shy like that, in certain situations I am more shy then other times. But sometimes i am not shy at all, I guess it depends on the situation.(Also, I am not sure if i have mentioned this somewhere else, but I think I have had a couple panic attacks before, and it wasn't around a lot of people, and at a house. But I described what happened to that friend and he said it sounded like a panic attack, and I even talked to him (on AIM) right after I had one, but as I typed i thought I was making no sense at all, and that it wasn't understandable, what i was typing, but he said it was perfectly understandable (meaning moreso how i was writing it, with grammer and everything), but it wasnt to me, and i think i was writing things wrong with lots of typos and grammar mistakes and totally writing like i never knew how to speak right)And also, do you think that a sort of panic attack could like "build up" or something, before it actually happened? Because I have been in far more stressful situations and nothing ever happened. But then again, maybe i was real nervous/anxious/etc. but couldn't feel it, like it was only on the inside.
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  • You might want to go to a neurologist and have them run an MRI to make sure there isn't anything wrong with your brain "wiring". Though MRIs can also be quite useful in testing for mental disorders by examining the brain structure.As for wanting this to happen again- don't. Mental illness rarely remains "desirable" or "limited" in scope- it gets progressively worse and often becomes psychologically paralyzing. It sounds to me like you wanted the attention, or you wanted to get out of a school function, and so you like the idea of having a problem that facilitates it. This will only harm you in the end- people won't take you seriously if you aren't diagnosed with anything, and they'll treat you like a "crazy" if you are. It's sad but even with all the developments in psychology, people still shun and speak down on those with psychological disorders.If you feel you have a genuine problem, or even a problem with school or your life in general, speak to a psychologist about it. DON'T opt for a Psychiatrist however, as then you'll just be given drugs and little else. If you have issues, they need to be dealt with and if you have disorders, you need to learn how to control them- psychiatrists would rather just give you a medicine to sedate you hoping that, as a walking zombie, you won't have the problems-along with any energy for that matter.Yeah, I sort of thought of that, except I wouldn't dare do something like that now, or even bring up the fact that I am not exactly "right" in the head, you know. So I think that I want to wait a few years until I am atleast 18, or out of my mom's place until I get that done. (I guess I am a very secretive person, i don't like people knowing about me at all. I guess I got it from my father, he's very secretive about his life too, heh).Anyways, what you said about me "wanting" it to happen again, because it was almost good-feeling (which I don't get how it could be, I was doing all i could to not scream in pain of my insides and stomach or whatever it was that was hurting like a SOB), I consciously didn't want attention or to get out of school for it, but maybe something like my sub-conscious did, (but now that I think about it, I don't think I was even in my conscious when this happened..) what ever made that "occurance" happen, was trying to help me out by trying to get me out of the position i was in, trying to make me get out of the enviroment i was in that made me feel so stressed/etc.But as for me thinking, while it was happening, that I liked it because of attention or get out of school free card, that wasn't the case. My mind was a total blank when it was happening anyways, so i couldnt really think of anything, except I think that one thing I was thinking was "what is happening?" although I could barely even think that, and the thought would get pushed away right after I thought it.
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