I think i may need help but I don't know why. It is just the way I've been thinking lately, it’s not adding up. Would love an outside opinion. Long story short, - I am a 16 year old girl from a well off, close nit family.
I am a control freak, do engage in promiscuous behaviour, keep people (family and friends) at a distance (but have numerous close friends and highly respected), work very hard at what I value yet am scared of success, feel relief from challenging situations, and thrive off intensity. I engage in a high risk sport (competitive horseback riding), workout excessively, desperately need alone time, and have this new and very strong desire to 'go away'. Like a mental home, a break, feel as though its coming, some point where I'm going to hit a breaking point, and need help. Range from having very high self confidence (as in self accepting) to absolutely none. High confidence when around people I am not familar with, at a party, have only met on superfical terms. Lack of self confidence when with people in relaxed situation, just 'hangin out'.
That is it in short.
Thank you very much, if any more info needed, please let me know. I have no expectations, just looking for some outside thoughts