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this hole just gets deeper.

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  • Posted By: downinahole
  • October 15, 2007
  • 02:02 PM

I am 21, and was first diagnosed with depression 4 years ago, although my symptoms were apparent to me years before (i just thought i was being a silly) and have progressively gotten worse, regardless of brand or dosage of drugs.
I have been prescribed a range of anti-depressant medication over the past few years, all SSRI's except for the most recent which is SNRI but none seem to help these feelings i have. They just make me feel like a zombie.

My symptoms are probably pretty similar to alot of people suffering from depression, but i do not believe i am suffering from depression as such, i believe depression is a symptom of something underlying.

Symptoms:

Really bad concentration problems. I think that whatever is causing this may be the reason behind everything else, as being unable to complete anything in my life i feel useless and pathetic.

Generally feeling "down" - this is continuous, although sometimes have brief moments of joy that seem to spring from nowhere.

Malaise

My head is racing a million miles an hour, i can't stop thinking, my brain never slows down, it uses all of my energy so my physical fitness level has become completely unbalanced with comparison to my mental hyperactivity. Of course, no matter how hard i try to put my mind to some constructive use, i just end up looping negative crap which leads to delusions, paranoia blah blah blah...

The biggest problem with this is that i feel that if could settle my brain and concentrate on one thing, i would actually do quite well in my many failed study attempts, but i have always had an extremely hard time trying to concentrate on one thing for any substantial period of time.

Continual physical fatigue. I have become almost completely incapable of performing any physical task. I think my brain wears me out.

Uncontrollable weeping episodes. I feel as though i am stuck in a deep deep dark hole and will never ever escape.

Strange episodes of over-excitement and extreme enthusiasm, this is usually followed by a massive plummet in mood. ( bi-polar-like?)

I'm not sure if this is relevant, but i have an insatiable sexual appetite. This seems to annoy my partner more than me.

I have slowly isolated myself from almost everyone except close family, and have trouble dealing with social situations. I get irritable and just want to go home to bed. Thus, i have been unable to hold down any job for very long as within the first week or two i am really struggling to find the mental and physical strength to face another day, and i find it hard to associate with co-workers. finding work (or anything where i have to deal with people) is becoming almost frightening for me, as i rarely speak to anyone but my partner and close family.

I have been going through this **** for years and have been telling the doctors and they still keep saying it's depression, just take this and go talk to this psychologist and we'll monitor you.

I thought i'd ask you guys if you have any ideas as to what's going on with me before i go and see another doctor:eek:

Cheers.

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  • I am 21, and was first diagnosed with depression 4 years ago, although my symptoms were apparent to me years before (i just thought i was being a silly) and have progressively gotten worse, regardless of brand or dosage of drugs.I have been prescribed a range of anti-depressant medication over the past few years, all SSRI's except for the most recent which is SNRI but none seem to help these feelings i have. They just make me feel like a zombie. My symptoms are probably pretty similar to alot of people suffering from depression, but i do not believe i am suffering from depression as such, i believe depression is a symptom of something underlying. Symptoms: Really bad concentration problems. I think that whatever is causing this may be the reason behind everything else, as being unable to complete anything in my life i feel useless and pathetic. Generally feeling "down" - this is continuous, although sometimes have brief moments of joy that seem to spring from nowhere. Malaise My head is racing a million miles an hour, i can't stop thinking, my brain never slows down, it uses all of my energy so my physical fitness level has become completely unbalanced with comparison to my mental hyperactivity. Of course, no matter how hard i try to put my mind to some constructive use, i just end up looping negative crap which leads to delusions, paranoia blah blah blah... The biggest problem with this is that i feel that if could settle my brain and concentrate on one thing, i would actually do quite well in my many failed study attempts, but i have always had an extremely hard time trying to concentrate on one thing for any substantial period of time. Continual physical fatigue. I have become almost completely incapable of performing any physical task. I think my brain wears me out. Uncontrollable weeping episodes. I feel as though i am stuck in a deep deep dark hole and will never ever escape. Strange episodes of over-excitement and extreme enthusiasm, this is usually followed by a massive plummet in mood. ( bi-polar-like?) I'm not sure if this is relevant, but i have an insatiable sexual appetite. This seems to annoy my partner more than me. I have slowly isolated myself from almost everyone except close family, and have trouble dealing with social situations. I get irritable and just want to go home to bed. Thus, i have been unable to hold down any job for very long as within the first week or two i am really struggling to find the mental and physical strength to face another day, and i find it hard to associate with co-workers. finding work (or anything where i have to deal with people) is becoming almost frightening for me, as i rarely speak to anyone but my partner and close family. I have been going through this **** for years and have been telling the doctors and they still keep saying it's depression, just take this and go talk to this psychologist and we'll monitor you. I thought i'd ask you guys if you have any ideas as to what's going on with me before i go and see another doctor:eek: Cheers.:rolleyes: WOW! You sound like me! I'm 55 & I'm have depression all my life. I too have taken every SSRI thats out there & even though they helped somewhat, they didn't take care of the situation. Plus they make you gain alot of weight. Course they destroy your sexual urges. You partner might like that part...LOL. I didn't have those kinds of urges though. I went to a phychologist who was a very nice man, but boring as heck. So I quit seeing him. I also have this terrible fear of riding in cars, driving anywhere thats outside of my comfort zone, anxiety, ocd, pstd, hate getting out of thehouse if I don't have too. More issues, but won't get into it all now. My deppression just kept getting worse so my hubby found this hypnotherapist & I started going to see him. He has taught me self hypnosis & how to meditate & he's using cognitive therapy on me. I am not on the antidepressives anymore, as I told him I didn't want to take them anymore. He gives me things to do every day, like working on thought sheets, self hypnosis, meditation, using good & positive affirmations, etc.. & it's really helped me tremendously on the depression & anxiety. And my fears aren't as bad as they used to be either. Our insurance doesn't cover this as this guy works out of his home, but he only charges me $40.00's a session. I've had 13 sessions so far. You have to really really work with the therapist for this work & do everything they ask you to do. He told me that it takes tons of energy to be depressed & thats one of the main reasons I'm so tired & listless. My mine races alot too, but he said I'm not bipolar, but maybe a bit ADD. Course you might be bipolar & if you are, SSRI's are not going to help you much. I've read they can even make you manic or more manic if you're bipolar. And let your doctor know that you just can't take these feelings anymore & to find you a good therapist. A good one can really help you, as long as you're willing to work with them. Keep us posted on how things go ok?:)
    alltrouble2 7 Replies
    • October 16, 2007
    • 11:07 AM
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