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suicidal thoughts, but not depressed?

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  • Posted By: Anonymous
  • June 6, 2010
  • 01:47 AM

hi, im 15 years old. i often get crap for being "gay" at school even though ive never actually come out of the closet. most likely because i have sort of a speech impedement and i am feminine. i have a good life and i dont think im depressed but i think about suicide often. my dad keeps a gun under the seat of my car and i think about how easy i could escape my problems. i have weird mood swings like ill be doing my favorite thing (listening to music, creating tumblr themes, and messing around with my droid) and ill have this great adrenaline rush but then it goes down and i get angry and remember vividly of the people who harass me.
lately its gotten worse and i think about it all the time. but its weird because i dont feel like ihave the common symptoms of depression. if anyone has some advice itd be greatly appreciated!

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  • hi, im 15 years old. i often get crap for being "gay" at school even though ive never actually come out of the closet. most likely because i have sort of a speech impedement and i am feminine. i have a good life and i dont think im depressed but i think about suicide often. my dad keeps a gun under the seat of my car and i think about how easy i could escape my problems. i have weird mood swings like ill be doing my favorite thing (listening to music, creating tumblr themes, and messing around with my droid) and ill have this great adrenaline rush but then it goes down and i get angry and remember vividly of the people who harass me.lately its gotten worse and i think about it all the time. but its weird because i dont feel like ihave the common symptoms of depression. if anyone has some advice itd be greatly appreciated!little dude, take a deep breath. You don't think you're the first gay teenager to go thru this, do you? :)forget suicide, that's just goofy! think about it. so you're gay, and some guys at school don't get it. SO F*ing what?! There are lots of gay kids, what you need is to build up a network. Get to know others so you aren't so darn isolated.GUESS WHAT?! You are LUCKY! You live in the internet age, so you can find support groups in your area. When I was your age (I'm not gay, but I've had gay friends) we didn't have the internet, so gays were REALLY isolated.try these:http://www.dailystrength.org/c/Gay-Lesbian-Teens/support-grouphttp://teenadvice.about.com/cs/homosexuality/Do your parents know? I kind of doubt it...but that might be part of your depression. Contact some gay support groups, get their advice, and then you need to start by talking with your Mom. Moms are generally more understanding. Dads sometimes don't get it. But if you handle it right, ***l, he's your dad, he'll love you even if he doesn't understand you (and if he doesn't, too bad for him, you have to be true to yourself).What activities do you enjoy? And don't give me that "playing with my phone" crap, that's NOT an activity. That's a waste of time! You need to make friends, and the internet and phone apps and video games DON'T help. Find a group you can join.One last thought: so there are kids at school who might bully you. OK, have you ever thought of taking a martial art? Who's to say effeminate males can't kick **s?! If my wife and daughter can do it, why can't you? And if you get to where you can defend yourself, guess what: the bullies won't want to mess with you. It's all about self confidence.Besides, once you get some self confidence, you'll also make more friends and feel better about yourself in general.Step away from the video games and go get a life. TAKE CONTROL of your LIFE! You are not a baby anymore, you are FIFTEEN YEARS OLD. You're a young man. Gay or straight, it's time to man up and take charge of your own life. Good luck!!!
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