hi, im 15 years old. i often get crap for being "gay" at school even though ive never actually come out of the closet. most likely because i have sort of a speech impedement and i am feminine. i have a good life and i dont think im depressed but i think about suicide often. my dad keeps a gun under the seat of my car and i think about how easy i could escape my problems. i have weird mood swings like ill be doing my favorite thing (listening to music, creating tumblr themes, and messing around with my droid) and ill have this great adrenaline rush but then it goes down and i get angry and remember vividly of the people who harass me.
lately its gotten worse and i think about it all the time. but its weird because i dont feel like ihave the common symptoms of depression. if anyone has some advice itd be greatly appreciated!