I am a 23yo male from Canada and I would like to list my symptoms and get any valid opinions that anyone has to offer. I'm posting here because I have had a blood test and any physical reasons have been ruled out. I must be getting a bit smarter as I get older or something because I'm not exactly sure what prompted me to do somethign about all of this. The following symptoms have been in place for over 5 years and I never used to think there was more to life.
-daydream a lot, when driving too though I somehow am aware of the drive, but this can't be a good thing.
-noticing that I'm having to hold back speaking a sentence or stop in mid sentence becaus I forgot the word that needs to come out. Simple words even, I know the meaning in my head by the way it has to come out escapes me.
-trouble getting to sleep, light sleeper, have to turn over more than the normal person.
-hardly ever see results in body composition, despite much weight lifting and/or cardio.
-don't care about others as much as most people. I realize this at times when someone else says or does something that appears to be the right thing to do because they care, this comes as an instant realization to me because I would have never have thought to say or do the same.
-fidgety, always playing with hair to get it right, bouncing my legs a little bit as I am sitting, maybe some light gritting of teeth(not sure how common though)
-always catching myself with slightly raised shoulders causing tension in that area
-I am usually the one to say something erratic or even questionable while people are talking
-I feel like I have to tell people what they want to hear for fear of what might happen if I don't, this is a problem at work since I do call center work, tech support for major computer company and some calls I take I can hear frustration in someones voice right away and I think what I might feel when that happens is anxiety.
-once every week or two I will decide stay home from work in the minutes after waking up and I'm still lying in bed. Decidingto say home usually wins over goin to work whenever this happens and make I something up about why I can't go in, So I can stay home and sleep in and and get out of bed when I feel like it. I don't like sleeping too long, but I can stay in bed for over ten hours easily, not all of the hours are good sleep either.
-most of the time I feel like something has a slight grip on my soul, just enough to notice discomfort in myself which is borderline physical, this becomes much more apparent to me when I'm hungry
-sometimes I will imagine a verbal conflict with a person whom irritates me, and my imagination can stirr up almost real emotions of anger and frustration
-Too often I agree to do something with friends (usually their idea) and then half an hour later regret it because I am am somehow more comfy at home in my room (I dont have a fear of public places by the way)
-I dont have to be working a job for very long before I get the feeling that I need to get another one so I can quit the one i'm in.
***after listing this I will now mention that I have had rare moments of peace and clarity within the last 5 years, like a fog was lifted. these moments were after heavy breathing. Making out with someone (or more) for over 15 minutes, and trying to learn the right breathing to be able to sing correctly. A feeling of confidence and comfort with who I am comes with these rar moments of peace and clarity. It feels like it has to be the normal way I should feel and lots of other people probably feel that way normally.***
My psychiatrist has me researching anxiety disorders and depression which lead me here. I appreaciate anyone who has read this post and replied.