For about 5 years now I've suffered on and off with anxiety. It started out quite serious and all of sudden, basically every morning I would wake up and be sick. And it didn't matter if I didn't eat anything, or if I had a glass of water, or a bowl of healthy dry cereal. This was a regular occurance on mornings when I had to go to school. It would usually subside at the weekends, so long as I didn't have to go anywhere.
After a while I just stopped eating completely, that way I thought.. 'Hey, If I'm not eating, then I can't throw up.. right?' And that just led to worse problems, because then I would find it hard to eat anything. Over the last 5 years I've got better at dealing with my anxiety, and I've had a few different jobs, and I've been OK with those, although initally going to the interviews and starting there were absolutely terrorfying.
It used to be so bad that I would be scared to get a haircut, because I knew I would be sitting in the chair for 30 minutes or more, and I would worry myself thinking 'what If I throw up'. But I'm now OK with those situations, so I feel as though I'm slowly conquering it. However, I am still having problems with larger social situations, such as eating in a restaurant with a group of 4+ people, I feel sick to the stomach for the duration. And often now when thrown in to those situations, I sometimes just go to the toilets and I'll make myself sick just to rid myself of the feeling. Also going out with friends to pubs or clubs, I can find that difficult, just worrying again about being in the queue outside hoping I don't throw up, or in the car on the way there. It sometimes gets to the point where I'll avoid those social situations. However, on the odd occassion I do manage to not avoid them, and I'm sometimes OK, but it's never without the fear and anxiety.
I just wish it would magically go away. Although I've somewhat got better over the last 5 years from when it first started, It's not completely gone away. A girl I like, her parents have invited me for a dinner, and I absolutely want to go and for everything to be alright, but I'm already worried about it. Meeting the parents is hard enough, let alone with the feeling that you might be sick.
So that's my story. Just wondering if anyone has had the same sort of experiences in social situations at restaurants, and how they've tried to conquer their fears and anxiety.
Any help would be greatly appreciated.