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Should I get help?

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  • Posted By: Anonymous
  • January 1, 2010
  • 09:51 AM

Hiya. I'm 17 years old and I don't know what's wrong with me. All the time I wish I was dead. I have extreme self-esteem issues and I'm often unbearably sad. I realize that I'm in good circumstances, my family is good and fine. Yet, all things considered, I hate myself and I'd rather not ever have existed.

The depression isn't consistent, I don't think. I don't know if I should call it depression, though. I have bouts of extreme sadness where I just break down and go to sleep because I can't do anything else, but then there's times like these, where I'm content at the moment. Not upset, but still wanting to be dead.

I'm confused, I don't know if I'm explaining this well. Basically, I always wish I was dead, even if I'm okay at the moment. What should I do? Will it pass or do I have to grow up or something or what?

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  • I'm not an expert, or educated in any way to help you. So i am not going to try and say what is wrong. What i suggest is seeing a proffesionall about it, they will know where to start. You seem aware that there is an issue, but u need to not ask help on a forum, u need to get serious, confidential, profesional help. Don't be affraid to ask, that is what they are trained for and complete confidentiality is guarenteed.
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • January 6, 2010
    • 04:45 PM
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  • I'm not an expert, or educated in any way to help you. So i am not going to try and say what is wrong. What i suggest is seeing a proffesionall about it, they will know where to start. You seem aware that there is an issue, but u need to not ask help on a forum, u need to get serious, confidential, profesional help. Don't be affraid to ask, that is what they are trained for and complete confidentiality is guarenteed.But how do I go about doing that? I have no money and I can't seek help from parents because they don't believe in any of that stuff.
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • February 8, 2010
    • 08:53 AM
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  • This sounds like major depression, not regular depression. I've had major depression FYI, and I'm aware of quite a few of the symptoms (which you've mentioned). Apart from the bleak outlook on life, and your brain's resistance to logic in overcoming the depression, there's the fact that you seem to go to sleep (lack of energy) at times. Saying you hate yourself and you wish you were dead is certainly rather extreme, this did not happen to me, but I'm not the sort to give up on life. Still, this level of extreme negativity is a symptom.You *MUST* see a psychiatrist, regardless of what your parents try to tell you. I have a rather good psychiatrist myself FYI, and I've survived 2 major episodes of depression, despite other mental health problems such as Autism and OCD. If your parents don't believe in psychiatry, then they're mistaken. Tell them that someone who knows what major depression is like disagrees with them completely, and that you *MUST* get help right away. Also tell them about what I said about my psychiatrist and surviving 2 episodes of depression (having a former nurse as a mother also helped). Don't take no for an answer whatever you do. It's your parents' job to take care of you, not to ignore you because they simply don't believe in something that might help you. Once you get to a psychiatrist, mention any and all symptoms, no matter how trivial, and anything else you think may help in a diagnosis.If for some reason you cannot see a psychiatrist, I think this website has somewhere that you can try posting your symptoms to doctors online, not to mention you can try searching the Internet for doctors that may offer free diagnosis online via something more specialised than message boards (this is unlikely to be as good as seeing a psychiatrist, and I would NOT recommend it instead of seeing if the psychiatrist (physical exams over the Internet would be impossible), if that option is available, but doing it as well as seeing a psychiatrist might be ok).
    Anonymous 42789 Replies Flag this Response
  • i too think you have a bad case of depression. Depression is a problem with the brain chemicals and you probably need treatment. i suggest you to go and talk to your school counsellor about how you feel seeing your parents arent listening. i dont know about your country but in mine there are by phone, child help lines and another phone line called lifelife for those with issues like depression or feeling suicidal. You could also try ringing whatever phone help lines are available in your country and ask how you could get some help. i do suggest to try talking to your school counsellor first.
    taniaaust1 2267 Replies Flag this Response
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