In the last 3 months I have started getting small bouts of detached / dissociative / difficulty relating to reality moments. It's really challenging to put the feeling into words. It will come on in normal day to day situations - sitting at family dinner, talking to a colleague at work. It has never lasted more than 5 minutes, usually it lasts 60 - 120 seconds, it happens once a week - sometimes a little more, sometimes a little less. It almost feels like I slightly lose my connection to reality, I am completely aware of what is going on and I can distinguish between what's happening to me internally and the reality outside of me. These bouts came on 4 months ago when I was working out pretty intensely and had changed my diet (essentially a vegan diet).
I tried to talk to my doctor about it but they dismissed me saying it was likely my diet. Two months ago I changed all of my habits back to 'normal' exercising once or twice a week and eating my normal diet. The bouts are still happening.
At this point I'm terrified it's a brain tumor or some type of neurological disorder. I'm lost and can't seem to get my doctor to take me seriously.
- I was diagnosed with ovarian cancer when I was 23 , I'm now 26. The tumor was removed through surgeries, I didn't have chemo.
- I did try drugs in my teens and a little in my early 20's (mdma).
- Female and no family history of mental illness, aside from my mom having occasional anxiety issues.
Any idea on what might be going on? I'm really terrified it will get worse and don't know where to go from here.