I'm a 24 year old female that has suffered from anxiety problems most of my life but always on and off. I've always been more of a worry-wort but just not too long ago they have re-appeared.
I was panic and anxiety free for about 10 years and last year in 2008 I was in a car accident, my 5th one . I started to experience anxiety from driving, always thinking someone else is going to hit me or they'll drive infront of me and I'll hit them, then 5 months after the 1st accident someone rear ended me pretty hard and I snapped.
I've always been able to control my anxiety and panic by distraction or coping methods but this time round nothing works. I took 1 year off work to take a break from any anxiety and driving and it got alot better, so I've joined the work force again and my anxiety and panics are out of control. I've seen a psychologist and I was diagnosed with GAD and PTSD as well and we tried cognitive behaviour therapy, driving 30 minutes during the day 5 days a week. It went fine.
Anyways back to today, I've hit the breaking point of anxiety, I goto work and I panic when I'm getting ready for work ,uncontrolable panics, heart thumping, sweating, hyperventilating, dizzy ect. Then I drive to work and it doesn't ease up, all day at work I'm sick, tired, exhausted, stomach pains, panics, sweating and I just want to cry and die! I can't control the anxiety anymore and it's so bad that I've resorted to smoking again after I quit this year, which makes me feel like I'm failing myself, resorting to a drug to try to cope with the feelings.
When I had the first accident I lost 20 lbs from anxiety, I gained it all back in the year I had off and now I'm losing weight again because I can't eat whenever I work, I can't even force food down my stomach!
Just thinking about work causes me to hyperventilate and sweat and not sleep. I think it's the feeling of being TRAPPED there and I can't escape, well I can but can't, you know...
Because whenever the last 2 hours roll around I get better and antsy, just wanting to go home.
Does anyone know of any good treatments for this? Any good books?
I've tried meditation, helps ALOT with sleep but nothing else. I work in a spa btw, you'de think I would be relaxed!