Hello. Firstly i would like to introduce myself, i am a 17 year old male, whose English isin't his first or second language, so just bare with me.
Half of my life i was normal like everybody else, but lately i came to realise that isin't true anymore. I became really really and once again really shy. I have difficulty in conversations with other people that i don't know well. With my parents, teachers and some of my close friends (who i no longer really have to be honest) i am rather confident, but normally, talking with some classmates, or other people in social situations has become really hard. I became obssesed in how i look to others : if im doing the right thing, am i dressed the right way and etc.I try to make a good impression. The thing i hate the most is for example waiting for something and i am surrounded with people. I start to sweat badly, my hands tremble, and i tap my feet. Speaking of trembling, i have a slight tremble in every social situation.
Due to this, i don't really have any friends. Thats why i sit A LOT in front of the PC (Maybe thats one of the problems?). And even on the internet, it is really hard for me to speak with a microphone, similary to a mobile phone. All my old friends moved out, and it has become really difficult for me to meet others - usually there is nothing to talk about. I am really concerned, because this will be my final High School year, and i think about going abroad studying, and i am afraid to get socially isolated.
Well i think this is enough of my rambling. I hope you understood my problem. If you need something cleared up, or need more info, please ask. Thank you.