Ive been on risperdal for 5+ years now, i dont even remember why i started taking it in the first place all i can remember is that i was recommended by my mother that i go see a psychiatrist and he pushed and pushed and pushed the medication on me until i had to take it. Now i am overweight by 50 some odd pounds, i have extreme social anxiety to the point where i dont want to make friends or talk to anyone (i wont even go into a grocery store because I have to interact socially). I work in computers so I sit and stare at a screen all day, i DREAD the days where I have meetings because of the anxiety. My doctor says im doing better than before, that without the medication Ill get worse and that its holding me together. I recognize I had a problem from the start which is probably why he wanted me to take the drugs, but 5 years on them, i dont even recognize myself anymore. My psychiatrist and I can almost agree on everything except when it comes to me taking medication, then he changes the subject or makes me feel stupid by telling me how much I really need them. He diagnosed me with schitzophrenia, although I never heard any voices or had hallucinations. At first his excuse for pushing the drug was that I was psychotic and I needed it, but since then hes said that I am not psychotic anymore so why do I still need to take this drug that makes me so fat and low sex drive, lethargic, dont want to do anything, etc.
Could others share their experience with risperdal and the length they took it for, battles with your psychiatrists or similar experiences that may shed some light into what I can do about this?