hi i was diagnosed with nervous disability about 2 years ago and got help to cope with it wich has helped, but now i want to know more about it. they said it was most likely my child hood that caused it as my mum has munchosin by proxy ( i really dont know how to spell it )
i got told that the best thing i could do was re-avaluate my life to see what holding me back and i new my mum was someone who would never let me get better so i cut all contact with her and found my self feeling a hole lot better but i new my partner had to go aswell but i couldnt seem to leave him but eventauly he left himself and i never let him back in my life. Now i know im loads better and for a while there i thought it had gone away completly but now i know it hasnt. iv started shaking again, stubling over my words, panick atacks and feel my self withdrawing, but why iv moved on my life is great and couldnt ask for more.
the only thing i can think of is my mum has tryed to get back incontact but i ignored it.
i think the questions i want to ask are
why do i have this?
what is it?
will it ever go away?
why do i shake and stumble over my words so bad?
will i ever be able to face my fears?
how can i tell what symptoms of my nervousness and what just normal?
how do i explain to peaple whats wrong when i go thro a bad patch without them thinking im a loony?
am i the only one?