I about to lose my mind as my wife refuses to get help. Here's the problem, she's having paranoid delusions. She thinks that everyone in Houston is talking about her. That's she the talk of the town. Even David Letterman talks about her on his show.
She her's teenage girls and boys yelling "B!tch", "Crackhead", "****e", "Stupid b!tch", and more. These voice yell at her all day and all night. She's thinks the girls (14, 16, 17) that live downstairs are behind it. She thinks their friends stand outside our balcany and yell all day and all night. When I ask her how anyone could stay up like that, she says, "They are young, they don't need to sleep."
We went into a Whataburger, and she nearly threw her food at the people behind the counter, because she knew they were talking about her, she heard them. She knew they messed up her food.
She so tired of the voices, that she wants to kill the girls that live downstairs.
I tried to get her family to help, but they tell her she needs to pray and that "nothing" is wrong.
She won't get help. And in Texas unless she signs her self in, their isn't anything anyone can do unless that try to commit a act to hurt themselvers or to hurt others.
Last November she cut up her hands, took a bunch of Tylenol PM's. She called 911, and they took her to the Harris County Psychartric Clinic, or HCPC. She was evalutated for 10 weeks, but on some meds that really didn't help. And then much to my surprise sent her home.
Now she thinks that there's nothing wrong with her, because if something was wrong with her they would not have sent her home.
I'm about to give up, pack up what I can, and move out and leave her.
She spends most of the day and night waging war with the neighbors, yelling out the windows at them. Playing the TV loud in every room. Playing her stereo loud in every room.
She turns on the fans in the bathrooms to drown out the "voices". She once of those sleep aids that makes "sounds" like water running, thunderstorms, etc. She keeps that running all day and all night with the volume turned all the way up.
She will have that on, the TV blaring, her stereo on, her portable cd player on, with headphones, and will snap her head around and yell at people "outside" because they are screaming at her.
She fills up the sings with water because people can hear her through the pipes.
She thinks as soon as she says something, even in a whisper, in our apartment that everyone can hear her. That as soon as she says it, everyone nearby knows about it, and that they are telling the rest of Houston.
I've tried everything I can do to get her help. But she refuses to believe it.
Tells me she hates me because I don't support her. That she's wasted her life with me because I don't believe her. And at times she wants to kill me.
This morning we got into a fight, and she started to wreck our apartment. I still don't know what I'm coming home to.
She so convinced that these voices are real, that I don't know what to do.
Even when we are in the car, she thinks the people in cars around us, people walking the street, they are all calling her names and talking about her.
She will roll down the window and scream at people.
I took her up to my office, where we were the only people in the building, and that no one else was around, and could not be around. Even then she heard the voices. But for a few minutes part of her mind realized that was impossible. And for a few hours while we were there she agreed to get help. But as soon as we left, "people" started talking about her again, and she decided that I was wrong again.
My father is in the ICU in Georgia, and likely dying. He's my last living realative. My wife is nuts, and won't get treatment.
I'm starting to lose my grip on reallity. Falls from tall bridges are starting to look good to me.
I just can't take anymore fighting over people that aren't there. It's been like this since October.
So before I lose my grip, I've got to leave her. But I feel like I'm abanding her when she needs me the most.
She yells at me about not supporting her, when I feel like all I've done is try to support her.
I'm so god ***n angry at her. She'd rather believe this voices, then her own husband of almost 9 years.
***l if I owned a gun I'd be tempted to shoot her myself. She never shuts up. I never get a moments rest.
I have to try to wear ear plugs at home, and try to sleep with them too.
The she we just start yelling at me cause I'm not listening to her. I can go on and on and on about her crazy antics. She was in the hospital for Sickle Cell Anemia, and she wallked in the hallway in front of the nurse station, pull her pants down, stuck her finger inside herself, pull them out and tolk the nurse to go "F__ themselves!" And then walked out of the hospital and took a cab home.
Anyone have any ideas what I should do? Hitting her with a baseball bat that until she stops talking that would be bad? I mean I know it's bad, but part of me just wants this to be OVER. I'm starting to see signs that my own personality is cracking. Post tramatic Disorder? I know I'm losing my grip.
Anyone in the Houston Area, have any ideas?
Help before I lose it myself....
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