I hope that someone on here can relate to these symptoms to help me feel sane again!
I am 42 years old. To make a long story short as possible. I have always had anexiety attacks since H.S. But as I have gotten older, I have had things in my life that either have made it all worse, or Im just losing my mind. I actually have a Dr appt next week to get a check up on some things and hope that he may have some answers.
In July 2003 my 20 year old son was killed on a motorcycle. In Dec 2005 my mom went into the hospital to have a blockage taken out in her intestines and ended up in ICU for 3 months and died March of 06. I had a heart conditon develope in Jan 01 which I was told I have tachacardia, PVC and have had atrial fib once. I was in a very mentally abusive relationship for 3 years which ended in Nov 2005. I am an attractive and believe it or not above intellegence woman. But my life has been He....the last few years. I have been diagnosed with depression/anexiety back in 2001 and I still fight it. So NOW.....my problems have became worse. I am having these feelings that just over come me for no reason it seems. I may be fine and then all of a sudden I can feel myself "Drop" into a depressed state". Its like my whole feelings just change. I can become irriatable, full of tears, shakey, my heart pounds and I feel detached and withdrawn. My face gets flushed and I just feel like I cant get my breath. Dizzy, blurry vision and this can last either minutes, hours or a few days. I feel like Jekyl and Hyde!!! I may go a few weeks and feel great and then boom! I was feeling this way for few days.....then yesterday I felt "OK" and then today as the day has went on, here it is again. My family and friends say im like in a zone all my own. I just feel so sad and withdrawn at the time this change hits me. I have flash backs at times of the night my son died, and at the hosptial with my mom. Its like a movie projector that plays over and over. I usually develope headaches and get tired when all this happens. Just llike out of the blue!
Some one help me please???