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Misdiagnosis of Bipolar, How it is done

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  • Posted By: DonaLuna
  • December 27, 2010
  • 00:08 AM

I was a stay art home Mom to 3 sons, 11 and under, very much a "doer" close to Type A personalty , when I tried hypnosis to discontinue smoking. Building a new home at the time, my weight ballooned, when I ceased to smoke. Psychologically, in our tiny rental house , I felt homeless and quite helpless, when my middle son's appendix blew out and near death, I stayed with him for 9 days in the hospital.

A few months later we moved into our new house and all that entails, but I had developed a sever spastic colon. I did not seek medical advice for years, then did so in earnest because of the control being visited on me by this nasty spastic colon.
My kindly practitioner, listened to my complaints and sent me home with Xanax, which DID alive ate the spastic colon, symptoms, but unawares, I became addicted to this medication I knew little about. In April of 89, I was on a 12 day cycle of taking 5 Xanax a day, and had no clue I was doing so. ***l was my day on that 12 day and calling a therapist for help, I did drive myself to his office, and then referred to a psychiatrist , I was admitted, and spent 17 days in a mental facility. No test, only subjective questions, I was 1a Acute Paranoid disorder, b, Marital problems, ll Histrionic Personality, with dependency, and lll Irritable Bowel syndrome all very billable codes on medical insurance claims.
Later when I returned to this "dr", after doing some research about the Bipolar disorder, he confirmed my fears and in 93 began Lithium medications among others,though I had explained I had low thyroid, a DSM code said NOT TO TREAT with Lithium, and as it tore my system asunder ( I am highly allergic to metals) he changed it to Eskilith, a coated version of Lithium . 13 years followed with children unschooled in what was wrong with Mom, a husband who exited after 5 years of no support (as it was my issue and I could not preform my duties as wife and Mother), followed by the death of my Mother, my sons scattering, the sale of my home, and body pain, and a broken heart/soul
Now I must also include her, that I had much dental work done in the mid 80s, and again allergic to Mercury, I Do strongly believe this neurotically had a huge impact on my mental health as well as my physical.
Divorce and many inappropriate things happened, including my being represented by a lawyer who had been partners with hubby, being stated as "of sound mind" NO reference to my mental state, or psychiatrist, thus being made liable for my own health care cost. I was awarded $700, per month spousal, and a no fault divorce was awarded. This covered up a laundry list of 'ills", including the finances which were the soul discretion of hubby, and his infidelities of which I was unaware, including non payment of IRS taxes since 1995, to date. I had no one to help me, or stand by me, and I did return to court in 2006 for an increase of SS, and the state supreme court heard my case, but I lost, as again NO mention was made of my psychiatric disability.
So in a new "old " house which drained me mentally and psychically, after changing doctors 3 times, after family protective orders ( made after I requested more SS) and more ***l on earth than any one human being should ever experience , I found the shrink who allowed my research, instilled in me , my self worth, discovered my spirituality and many truths, including the repeated traumas of my life, I am prescription drug fee, fully recovered from the misdiagnosis of bipolar manic depress, with a former shrinks, written words, IT was the medications.

A huge component of this a non bonding with the Mother, as I experienced and being molested before the age of 5, again with no one noticing , the horror deep within me. I now freely council others and men and women relate similar, background stories.

Lost was many productive years, my children , my home, my life as it was. While it was not working within the marriage, I feel strongly that legal actions involving a person, who is under the care of a psychiatrist, should have an educated mental health guardian ad item, an that it not be left to the lawyers discretion as to this action. I had the mentality of a 4 year old, I was not reality based at all. My sons are adults now, and are very angry over the bast, of which there and been no discussion and of which while they are aware there was abuse, and lack of respect, via Dad, his words of comfort wee that in order to be happy, he "had to" walk out, leaving me with 2 of them in house, but very responsible for their own lives as I was so out of it.

Recovery has many stages, and is a very long haul. I am now 58, I do have a decent income which affords me to work for free helping others,but the natural order of my life and the lives of my sons was forever altered. I have 2 grandsons who are used as emotional blackmail against me and I am not allowed to see. I cannot contact my youngest son, disallowed from his college graduation, wedding and, now a child comes to him I will never see.
The price is far too high, in acceptance that a drug will heal us, and as I find out daily there are repercussions, my health greatly affected, but there have been many gifts and much love outside of my family.
Recovery is the ultimate test, and finally accepting that I am here to love and be loved and am perfect as is. as are you, is the message.
But I will peacefully fright with the many I "work" with to tell my story, and be the warning if not the example, for our kids and grand kids so this epidemic and Nazi, mind/body/soul, control ceases in my life time, as many awake to the facts.

Blessings

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  • Hi Donna! I also live in Va. and your story is like a mirrow of me. Eventhe age! 58. For what it's worth, all shrinks need shrinks!!! I went through the hospitial thingie to. On the second trip, they literly kickedme out! by that I had gotten some 'smarts' on being 'crazy'! This is true! by year of 2004 I got SSDI, I'm documented with so many issuesthat that judge in Richmond dang near started crying when I turned onmy waterworks. I now and always had anixety issues, like life as you've had, who wouldn'tOh and got hooked on benzos! they do like to give those out to all. It's been about 16yrs now and I've tried to go off. Just can't body goesinto spasums. I now have a heart disorder that AFIB, and causes strokes.I can't find a real doctor that will take me seriously about my blood disorder that is causing the bloodthinners, not work. Even cardiologist worte me off! True!! I have Vasculaur Deminuta. Told me by next yearI would be like alizehmers! Also that since nothing is going to change,go see a shrink! lolol Why so the shrink can shrink my brain faster??Oh and quit smoking. I don't want to die of lung cancer while my brainis frying up! please forgive all spelling bobo's! Forgot to download spellckWell some 'better' news, On my own, I have discovered the blooddisor.that is 1 of 3 I may have. all are connected. Just different labels, SickleCell disorder. Iron overload, with funny shaped cells that eat away thegood ones. I have to go to Johns Hopkins to get the treatment Im in need of! God Bless -----------------------------------------------------------I was a stay art home Mom to 3 sons, 11 and under, very much a "doer" close to Type A personalty , when I tried hypnosis to discontinue smoking. Building a new home at the time, my weight ballooned, when I ceased to smoke. Psychologically, in our tiny rental house , I felt homeless and quite helpless, when my middle son's appendix blew out and near death, I stayed with him for 9 days in the hospital. A few months later we moved into our new house and all that entails, but I had developed a sever spastic colon. I did not seek medical advice for years, then did so in earnest because of the control being visited on me by this nasty spastic colon.My kindly practitioner, listened to my complaints and sent me home with Xanax, which DID alive ate the spastic colon, symptoms, but unawares, I became addicted to this medication I knew little about. In April of 89, I was on a 12 day cycle of taking 5 Xanax a day, and had no clue I was doing so. ***l was my day on that 12 day and calling a therapist for help, I did drive myself to his office, and then referred to a psychiatrist , I was admitted, and spent 17 days in a mental facility. No test, only subjective questions, I was 1a Acute Paranoid disorder, b, Marital problems, ll Histrionic Personality, with dependency, and lll Irritable Bowel syndrome all very billable codes on medical insurance claims.Later when I returned to this "dr", after doing some research about the Bipolar disorder, he confirmed my fears and in 93 began Lithium medications among others,though I had explained I had low thyroid, a DSM code said NOT TO TREAT with Lithium, and as it tore my system asunder ( I am highly allergic to metals) he changed it to Eskilith, a coated version of Lithium . 13 years followed with children unschooled in what was wrong with Mom, a husband who exited after 5 years of no support (as it was my issue and I could not preform my duties as wife and Mother), followed by the death of my Mother, my sons scattering, the sale of my home, and body pain, and a broken heart/soulNow I must also include her, that I had much dental work done in the mid 80s, and again allergic to Mercury, I Do strongly believe this neurotically had a huge impact on my mental health as well as my physical.Divorce and many inappropriate things happened, including my being represented by a lawyer who had been partners with hubby, being stated as "of sound mind" NO reference to my mental state, or psychiatrist, thus being made liable for my own health care cost. I was awarded $700, per month spousal, and a no fault divorce was awarded. This covered up a laundry list of 'ills", including the finances which were the soul discretion of hubby, and his infidelities of which I was unaware, including non payment of IRS taxes since 1995, to date. I had no one to help me, or stand by me, and I did return to court in 2006 for an increase of SS, and the state supreme court heard my case, but I lost, as again NO mention was made of my psychiatric disability.So in a new "old " house which drained me mentally and psychically, after changing doctors 3 times, after family protective orders ( made after I requested more SS) and more ***l on earth than any one human being should ever experience , I found the shrink who allowed my research, instilled in me , my self worth, discovered my spirituality and many truths, including the repeated traumas of my life, I am prescription drug fee, fully recovered from the misdiagnosis of bipolar manic depress, with a former shrinks, written words, IT was the medications. A huge component of this a non bonding with the Mother, as I experienced and being molested before the age of 5, again with no one noticing , the horror deep within me. I now freely council others and men and women relate similar, background stories. Lost was many productive years, my children , my home, my life as it was. While it was not working within the marriage, I feel strongly that legal actions involving a person, who is under the care of a psychiatrist, should have an educated mental health guardian ad item, an that it not be left to the lawyers discretion as to this action. I had the mentality of a 4 year old, I was not reality based at all. My sons are adults now, and are very angry over the bast, of which there and been no discussion and of which while they are aware there was abuse, and lack of respect, via Dad, his words of comfort wee that in order to be happy, he "had to" walk out, leaving me with 2 of them in house, but very responsible for their own lives as I was so out of it. Recovery has many stages, and is a very long haul. I am now 58, I do have a decent income which affords me to work for free helping others,but the natural order of my life and the lives of my sons was forever altered. I have 2 grandsons who are used as emotional blackmail against me and I am not allowed to see. I cannot contact my youngest son, disallowed from his college graduation, wedding and, now a child comes to him I will never see. The price is far too high, in acceptance that a drug will heal us, and as I find out daily there are repercussions, my health greatly affected, but there have been many gifts and much love outside of my family.Recovery is the ultimate test, and finally accepting that I am here to love and be loved and am perfect as is. as are you, is the message.But I will peacefully fright with the many I "work" with to tell my story, and be the warning if not the example, for our kids and grand kids so this epidemic and Nazi, mind/body/soul, control ceases in my life time, as many awake to the facts. Blessings
    virginiaj 7 Replies
    • December 31, 2010
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  • this is how my diagnosis was done - i had a bad experience - i hallucinated about it ..... and then woke up in hospital ...... a couple of days later - my parents not understanding the minds potential to create hallucinations - took me straight to hospital - and they drugged me .......... i slept for 4 days on the drugs they gave me!!I was released and took myself off of the meds - then i had another mad experience - and became like super man ....... two total opposite behaviours, but still i have the same diagnosis? bla?there is a guy on youtube called - bipolar or waking up - you should really see his personal encounter ....... i don't believe that bipolar is a real illness/disorder at all ...... there are so many conspiracy theories involving drug companies, that i can't help but wonder why i am addicted to PRESCRIPTION medication. whether this conspiracy is deliberate i do not know.everyone has a story - and this was mine!
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  • Excellent learn, I simply passed this onto a colleague who was doing a little analysis on that. viec lam sim so dep
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  • I just want to say you mirror my life. I was diagnosed with bipolar at the age of 10, and at 21 am now off my medications. I was molested among many other sexual abuse from newborn to about 8 or 9, which was completely un-noticed my whole life until my mind started allowing my repressed memories to come out . I've been seeing an amazing therapist, and through her I've turned my life on track.I applaud you for what you do now, as I am going to college now for the first time and I'm planning on being an adult and adolescent therapist specializing in abuse. Thank you for sharing your experiences, it makes me feel less alone.
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    • August 21, 2011
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  • I really need help and nobody is giving it to me. 7 years ago I was pregnant and diagnosed with prenatal depression I sought help as i knew my thoughts were not rational. I was in a country ( Australia, Melbourne) where i was not a resident and alone with 2 young daughters I was lost and sacked rom my nursing aid job as too many girls were pregnant so had no access to benefits and have an incompetent cervix so high risk premature birth ( I had a son born still born at 21weeks 6 years prior in my own country Uk-had very supportive friends and family) The doctor did not insert suture correctly around cervix at 23 weeks i came into premature labour and was 5cm dialated they chose not to give me nerfedepine or antibiotics that was given to me in a previous pregnanct in Uk which resulted in a full term birth. I was admitted at 12pm 20th july 2004 to Monash Hospital in Melbourne at 12 am the 21st a doctor taking over night shift decided to give me oral nerfedepine due to fear heart palpatations wth intravenous would require too much care and not enough nurses available. At 6am after 2 oral tablets my waters broke and i was in full labour my son was born he came out feet first the cervix thought it had completed its job and clamped shut around his neck, he was still in the sac with the umbilical cord wrapped around his neck the doctor was asking what they did last time i told her he wasn't born this way and begged her to save my son, not me just to save him she cut the cervix which broke the sac and cut the umbilical cord as much as she could and pulled his head down pushing down on his head. His brain was peirced he was handed to me as though he was dead and then he started moving. I begged them to help him ( My daughter is 17 now she was my first born she was 17 weeks prem weighed 1llb 10 ozs she is perfectly healthy) thy told me they couldnt his brain was damaged and his lungs was not given medication needed to help his lungs soften so he could breath.. he gasped for air for 4 and half minutes I held him and kissed him and tried to comfort him. After they prescribed me Avanza, Stillnox, Valium and Temazipan. After 3 years i came off the meds i was forgetful and barely functioning i wanted my life back and replaced my drugs with Marajuana for another 2 years on and off i was dependent but worked full time and had no depression. I was sacked due to bosses finding me too anxious when requiring accounts processing my doctor said after blood test i had an over active Thyroid. I quit smoking weed and then they decided i had Bipolar and gave me 300mg seroquel xr I have been on them for last 2 years and its making me more depressed i sleep all the time i drink 4 cans of energy drink minimum while sleeping and getting thirsty. recently I saw a psychiatrist cos i want to study, go back to Uni work and be able to do things with my children. I saw the pyschiatrist once and he was talking about changing my mds he did not prescribe the XR form. He changed my next appointment the day before to the saturday i was half asleep and couldnt make the appointment i soke to him first thing Monday. The following Friday i was suppose to attend but got an eviction notice so spent everything i had to kee my home i had no phone or cash to get there i rang him first thing Monday ( I had a claim n for disabilty i needed his report to get enough money to support my self) his receptionist said he was no longer going to see me and referring me back to my doctor. The letter he wrote to my doctor was advising i be put on double the dose??? That I have borderline personality disorder??? That my family back ground was A,B,C it was all incorrect he is old maybe he mis heard me I have no clue but i never told him my Mum was a drunk and gambling addict my Dad was I dont know what he called it. Or My brother was a drug addict in and out of jail?? I have 4 brothers?? One was a drug addict and my little brother did used to be in and out of jail but not on drugs he stole cars for fun?? My life is a nothing i do nothing on my meds and go no place and my children are starting to resent me I just want to get into a normal sleeping pattern and get my life back the way i live makes me so depressed it engulfs me this is not living. Why wont anyone listen? Why wont they help? I went back to the doctors they faxed a refferal to another shrink it has been over 2 weeks and i have heard nothing she gave me serapax 15mg i used instead of Seroquel despite her advice not to stop.. I functioned and felt so much better, i cleaned the whole house and made cupcakes, went to the movies with my daughters first time in many years now i am back on seroquel and its engulfing me again :( Why can they not see my life makes me depressed i need structure and stabilty i can acheive these things i am a smart well thought out person. I will die on these meds, i will sleep myself to death if thats possible or get so miserable sleeping pushing my dreams and ambitions further out of reach, What do i do??
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    • August 26, 2011
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