Ok Im getting the impression that people are making out that my stresses in life are far more serious than they actually are.
this is my situation
I'm in my early 20s and in my early teens I used to have an issue with cutting myself but I think that was due to the enviroment that I was living in, anyway that was an issue I out grew and I havnt gone near that in years.
not long ago i took up full time study which brought on pressure, I had to travel about 3 hours a day to and from uni which didnt help, i had home work all over the place but I felt i was just able to cope.
someone would bring their 3 year old to a very difficult class and I'd loose consentration, I'd go home and try and focus on what was being taught but I kept falling behind, I didnt have much time to do anything other than study, and I became very sleep deprived always worrying about did i finish this and I need to finsh that. then my mother started calling me at the worst moments telling me that she had relationship problems and having domestic punch ons with her spouse. on my days off where I tried to catch up on either sleep or homework some one would always come around and want me for something and so on . . . then one school night I went a bit nuts, being over tried and with so much homework I couldnt figure out. I tore handfulls of pages out of text books and cried all night. My house mate never seen me like this before, she managed to calm me down. my house mate got worried and talked to another friend about it who i think freaked more than me (this person means well) that lately I've been very snappy sometimes in tears etc (which is all true). I took some time off school and when I was in a mess and not thinking straight because I was over exhuasted she kept telling me that "it sounds like depression, you need help, you really do" and before I knew it I was sitting in a room with a counseller. I would have spent about 3 sessions with this counseler before I really started feeling depressed and getting suicidal thoughts and even self mutilated, I even had an episode that lasted 4 days where I went and got a heep of supplies to do myself in, I booked a hotel even and I cant really remember how I got out of it. I dread each time I have to go to the counseler, I feel like I'm being played and tampered with in the head every time I walk out of there. and for the friend that freaked out more than me, she's always telling me that I dont need a counseler I need a phyciatrest, then she tells me that I need to let it all out to my shrink, and that they cant really help me much unless I prove to be a danger to myself or others, then later she tells me not to go over bord because shrink can call someone in the take me away, but they wont lock me up they will just take me to a hospital.
and my counseler . . . we have awkward silences and she tells me that I need to get over my fear of people which I clearly stated I dont have, I try telling her that I have mental blanks, she asks if I have racing thoughts, I say no,
then she tells me my sub counsious has racing thoughts
if she asks me how I've been and I say good, she pounces on me asking "why? whats making it good?"
if i sit down and exhale loudly like you sometimes do, she pounces on me asking "what was thay about"
and so on and so forth
I been going to this docter around 6ish times now,
this is my 1st experiance with a councseler,
is this meant to happen? do all councelers do this?
can a cause of mental illness be caused by other people making you believe that you are mentally ill?
is there any cold hard Scientific evidence of having a mental illness?
how is mental illness diagnosed?
apart from anxiety and depression can mental illnesses developed over prolonged stress?