It started in Gr. 7, I'm in Gr. 10 now.
I came home and choked on a hot dog, I could breathe slightly but it was still enough to kill me, I hardly gulped for about 10 minutes. It felt weird, like it was still there. The following night I tried to eat but I couldn't, it felt weird, I went to the hospital because I thought it was still in my throat. Yadayadayada... I developped a Choking Phobia and a panic disorder. I didn't eat for the whole year. It was all replacement drinks, tomato soup, mashed potatoes. It was the hardest thing ever. I cryed while eating every night. But I'm a strong person, and I worked myself through it. You could see my ribs. My dad shunned the idea, he didn't know how to handle it. I had an instinct to yell MOM! after every bite because I thought I was choking. My mom was frustrated and yelled at me for it, which made me cry. I got through it though, more solid food to more solid food, I set goals for myself. I kept a journal. It helped unlike doctors who misdiagnosed me and gave me pills. I beleive I have a strong mentality, I came through phenomenon, I could've went insane. Just recently I've been able to eat anything. I even ate steak. 3 years without steak. I dont like to eat it though, Its hard for me to chew. I chew until things are liquid. But I have no problems with food.
I have a couple of severe panic attacks.. One back in grade 9. My whole body was like convulsing shaking, I couldnt walk, I grabbed onto the walls, I felt as if I were falling. Then in grade 10, I was so confident, I rarely had anxiety attacks, I smoke cannibis casually it seemed to calm me. And then I had my first anxiety attack with it, it freaked me out until i saw my friend who was also high. Then I calmed down. It was around exam times and I was stressed out, no big deal. I did it two days later and I couldn't move, I couldn't walk, I couldn't talk, I couldn't see, everything was going so fast but slowly, it was like everyone was translucent and it was shaking. Everything was shaking, the shaking made me want to vomit, I ran out of class pulling a friend behind me for paranoia support and sat in the bathroom I said every thought in my mind, I couldn't look at her face I had to hold on her arm, I couldn't sit, could do anything physical whatsover such as to pick up something. This lasted for an hour. The girl I smoked up with wasnt high at all. So I was thinking I was laced the last time I did it when I took the anxiety attack, so I waited a week, all I did was take ONE toke off of shitweed, the other girl didnt get high. I had the same symptoms of last time. I didn't do enough at all for it to be involved with drugs, the drugs just limited my mental reaction to my psychoticness.
I have at LEAST and thats being a good day... 5 panic attacks a day. 5 times I think I'm going to die. And on bad days, I feel like I'm falling down, I see through people and they flash like strobe lights... this is sober, I hallucinate sober, everything gets distorted, the only time im fine is when I get home, its like my comfort zone...
Please contact me if have any diagnosis for this, its beyond a panic disorder now...
I'd like to learn about it
I'd like to learn how to control it
Like I did with my eating thing...
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