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Long story, I'm young... I don't know what's going on.

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  • Posted By: moojive72
  • February 13, 2007
  • 03:17 AM

It started in Gr. 7, I'm in Gr. 10 now.
I came home and choked on a hot dog, I could breathe slightly but it was still enough to kill me, I hardly gulped for about 10 minutes. It felt weird, like it was still there. The following night I tried to eat but I couldn't, it felt weird, I went to the hospital because I thought it was still in my throat. Yadayadayada... I developped a Choking Phobia and a panic disorder. I didn't eat for the whole year. It was all replacement drinks, tomato soup, mashed potatoes. It was the hardest thing ever. I cryed while eating every night. But I'm a strong person, and I worked myself through it. You could see my ribs. My dad shunned the idea, he didn't know how to handle it. I had an instinct to yell MOM! after every bite because I thought I was choking. My mom was frustrated and yelled at me for it, which made me cry. I got through it though, more solid food to more solid food, I set goals for myself. I kept a journal. It helped unlike doctors who misdiagnosed me and gave me pills. I beleive I have a strong mentality, I came through phenomenon, I could've went insane. Just recently I've been able to eat anything. I even ate steak. 3 years without steak. I dont like to eat it though, Its hard for me to chew. I chew until things are liquid. But I have no problems with food.
I have a couple of severe panic attacks.. One back in grade 9. My whole body was like convulsing shaking, I couldnt walk, I grabbed onto the walls, I felt as if I were falling. Then in grade 10, I was so confident, I rarely had anxiety attacks, I smoke cannibis casually it seemed to calm me. And then I had my first anxiety attack with it, it freaked me out until i saw my friend who was also high. Then I calmed down. It was around exam times and I was stressed out, no big deal. I did it two days later and I couldn't move, I couldn't walk, I couldn't talk, I couldn't see, everything was going so fast but slowly, it was like everyone was translucent and it was shaking. Everything was shaking, the shaking made me want to vomit, I ran out of class pulling a friend behind me for paranoia support and sat in the bathroom I said every thought in my mind, I couldn't look at her face I had to hold on her arm, I couldn't sit, could do anything physical whatsover such as to pick up something. This lasted for an hour. The girl I smoked up with wasnt high at all. So I was thinking I was laced the last time I did it when I took the anxiety attack, so I waited a week, all I did was take ONE toke off of shitweed, the other girl didnt get high. I had the same symptoms of last time. I didn't do enough at all for it to be involved with drugs, the drugs just limited my mental reaction to my psychoticness.
I have at LEAST and thats being a good day... 5 panic attacks a day. 5 times I think I'm going to die. And on bad days, I feel like I'm falling down, I see through people and they flash like strobe lights... this is sober, I hallucinate sober, everything gets distorted, the only time im fine is when I get home, its like my comfort zone...

Please contact me if have any diagnosis for this, its beyond a panic disorder now...
I'd like to learn about it
I'd like to learn how to control it
Like I did with my eating thing...

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  • Yeah- you don't have a panic disorder- I have been there, my aunt , my sister too. It is not imaginary.You have food allergies and food intolerances.Did you feel a lump in the throat that comes when you eat? and you were scared to eat?Allergies that are not flagged and controlled turn in toxic overloads, that's why you have "panic episodes" which really are "toxic episodes".I am sorry you have to suffer like this- I know how it feels- it sucks, it sucks , it sucks. You just want everything to be normal and you are left out with a huge question mark.To unload that burden, you need to find the best acupuncturist you can but he/she has to be trained in NAET . Go to the NAET website (Nambudripad's Allergy elimination technique) and read a bit about it.Also read "Never Be Sick Again", "Eat Right for your Type", and "Your Body Many Cries for Water". These will give you a great gauge of understanding about the body, so you can feel in charge and understand the internal dialog of the body.Best.
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • February 13, 2007
    • 06:30 AM
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  • what does "yadayadayadayadaya"mean,please?
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • February 13, 2007
    • 05:49 PM
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  • By the way, you don't have as many "panic moments" at home, as you considered your place your "comfort zone" because you are not reacting as much to toxicity in your place. I think your place is cleaner than school.My school is a really toxic building- everyone is having panic disorders, infections like mumps, strep throat, mono, etc. Schools can be really toxic with all that cheap paint and new carpets. Everything is particleboard.Very, very toxic.Taking a toxin free multivitamin with lots of vitamin B, Selenium, and Magnesium will help you right away. A doctor of Oriental Medicine can give you a great homeopathic remedy to drain all the toxins.Best.
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • February 13, 2007
    • 06:00 PM
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  • Alright, well I'm going to the doctor tommorow. I'll talk to him about it. Especially if he talks about prozac etc. He's one of those pillpushers.I was never told about this allergy thing though. I've been told it could be a social phobia, paranoid schitsophrenia, borderline psychosis and just panic disorder.I'll get back to you tommorow.
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • February 13, 2007
    • 08:50 PM
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  • Hey Moojive, I just wanted to give you some support, tell you to hang in there.Also, I had that EXACT same food thing when I was in grade 7 or 8. I had choked when I was 8yrs but then when I was 12 my mom choked badly in front of me and it made me terrified of choking.I have never heard of anyone else having that sort of food issue and then learning to control it like that. I could only eat scrambled eggs, these cookies that turn to mushy texture right away in your mouth and milkshakes. I used to have the reaction you speak of with pot -- not always but sometimes. I realize you have the issues while sober, but I wanted to mention that it sounded so much like what used to happen to me.Anyway, good luck at the doctor. Best..M
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