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Lack of self confidence or ...?

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  • Posted By: Anonymous
  • August 29, 2007
  • 06:38 PM

I think something is wrong with me.

I am 19 years old, and two years ago I ended high-school. I took a year off because I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life. Now, I am going to be starting school tomorrow, but I have developed this strange problem.

I am a happy person, but for some reason, I think about suicide. But I don't know why. It's like, I have no reason that I would do it. Meaning, I have loving parents, I have siblings that care about me, friends that care about me, and I have a whole life ahead of me. But I somehow think that when I get a thought in my head (and it has happened with anything) I believe that I have that problem. I also self-evaluate my problems online and believe that I have them. I've gone though cycles this summer believing that I have certain problems and when I am scared, I go to my mother and I complain/cry about them to her. I look to her constantly for reassurance that I don't have these problems. And when she tells me that I don't have them, it goes away. But lately, the thought about suicide has crossed my mind (not "I'm going to do it", but "what if I did it?") and it has scared me to the point that her words don't help me anymore.

All in all, I don't show any symptoms of being suicidal. I eat healthy, spend time with friends, enjoy doing the things I do. But I just get thoughts and I don't know why I get them. I do, however, have a very stressful job, but I always vent my problems out.

Anyway, I think I have totally lost my self-confidence (or so she says), and I want it back. I want to be the same person I was in High-School, but I have no idea how to achieve that.

Is this an anxiety/depressional problem, or something simply that is all in my head (a coming of age thing)? I am all willing to get help to make myself feel better.

Thanks for reading and listening. :D

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  • Since I can't edit the post, I'd also like to add that my family (or my father's side) has a past history of thyroid problems. My younger sister has one, so perhaps, I might have it too? I'm going for a physical soon. :D So any help between now and then is great.
    Anonymous 42,789 Replies
    • August 31, 2007
    • 00:21 PM
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