Hi, I am a 21 year old female. I'm a bit underweight and have low self esteem since i was a kid. I used to have seizures as a child and get sick a lot. Don't have any friends. Don't really want any. I hate people phoning me too much. Anyway i think i have anxiety or something. I've been avoiding tough situations, you might not think it is to worry about but i go crazy over really simple things. For instance, someone is supposed to visit me or there's a important event coming up which i have to take part in. I freak out. My fingers tingle i go hot and cold, my scalp crawls i can't breath my heart races. Sometimes i feel like objects infront of me are drifting away. I can't handle any kind of pressure. I make a simple mistake at work and i feel like it's the end of the world. I feel ignorant and stupid sometimes i cry. I've been this way for a long time. I care too much though about what others say and i think that is one of my major problems. You don't have to say anything you just give me an angry look and i feel like i could die. I also have this problem where for instance i have a bad headache and i panic and do research and try to convince myself that i don't have a tumor, or heart disease or any other major condition.
I don't discuss these feelings with others all because i don't want them think i'm crazy or messed up or something.
Ps. Is it ok to like cats more than people? I have 5