New to this board so hoping someone could give me a bit of advise.
I suffered a stress related nervous breakdown last year. It was work related stress. I had no idea what happened. One minute I was looking at my PC the next I was in hospital. I suffered a stress related stammer for 5 months. I didnt go out of my house on my own I was on anti depressants and anti anxiety drugs for a long time.
Anyway I have over the past 8 months tried to get my life back on track. I have a job now and doing ok. but I keep reliving what happened to me, how I ended up having a breakdown, what I could have done to prevent it, what my boss has done and said to me since, going over and over it. I cant get to sleep without it going round my head. I dont go out of the house without someone as I am scared of bumping into my ex boss I have regular panic attacks.
I saw a psychiatrist a few months ago as I was behaving rather strange. Either so down I didnt want to be here or completely mad. running round like an idiot jabbering so quickly noone had a clue what I was going on about. Lashing out, shouting arguing with people going slightly off the rails. When I saw the psychiatrist he didnt ask about my breakdown. kept talking about my behaviour and diagnosed me with a mood disorder and personality disorder. Put on medication and see you in 3 months.
I stopped taking the meds as I was more like a zombie. I couldnt be like that at work, I care for a disabled girl.
Im going back to psychiatrist in 2 weeks. I want to say to him, are you sure its a mood disorder or is it a reaction to what I went through with my breakdown. How do you tell a psychiatrist I think your wrong.
Sorry to waffle on about this but any advise would be appreciated.