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  • Posted By: Anonymous
  • August 22, 2010
  • 06:05 AM

i get this also like mostly at at night i feel like i am a peice of poop like im worthless to all but yet i know im and when ever it happens i think so much about self mutilation or suicide i cant stand it i dont know what to do like every thing i used to like doing i just dont do it and i try to release these feeling by playing guitar but they still come back for no reason it is just like something inside needs me to be depressed but when i am around other people i act like nothing is wrong when i know there is but yet i dont what is wrong why i get sad like i have every thing i want in life i have my girlfriend i think its becuase i think sthat she will be talking to her ex boyfriend but im not to sure and i always rember what happend between me and her idk i guess i will say it here I was going to ask her out on a saturday and like ive known her since first grade and im barely a freshman well anyways two days before some random guy asked her out and shes liked me since we were tiny and she said yes to the guy and that day i was gonna kill him but i couldnt and sic=nce then i told my self that she is dead to me and that she nothing then comes the end of the year owe this happend like the middle of the year well two days before the last day she broke up with him and i was all happy and stuff so then the last day i asked her out but like since i told myself she dead to me i dont think i love her any more but yet its ****ed up because she love me and i am not a mean person so i would every hert her and i thought going out with her would like make me feel better m=but it made me feel worthless and dumb i just cant stop thiking about what shes doing when she doesnt answer my calls and then when she doesnt return them i get even worse so from stopping myself from hurting me i listen to music but when i dont have music i will begin to cut my legand i am a hipicrit becuase i said i hat e people who cut them selves so i do not tell any one and im tired of being sad

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