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I think about suicide/self harm but I don't feel depressed

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  • Posted By: Anonymous
  • July 14, 2010
  • 03:40 AM

I often think about suicide but I don't think I have every truly wanted to die. I don't believe I need to see a psychologist and I don't really want to. Often these thoughts have gotten me close to making some really bad decisions. I have tried to overdose several times but without success. I lay in bed and wait to see if something bad will happen, I go to sleep and I think maybe I won't wake up, I obviously I wake up and then I go about my daily business as if nothing has happened. No one knows I have ever felt this way or attempted to hurt myself. I feel fine afterwords, sometimes I feel stupid for ever trying such a thing or thinking such a thing. After such attempts I usually tell myself I will never let it happen again but the thoughts have always come back. I don't feel depressed, I really don't. Sometimes these thoughts happen even when I feel great. Sometimes, when I am a little stressed I will think about it more but not always. I do occasionally have mood swings but they aren't severe. I will feel really bad for a day or two and then I am over it and it's back to normal. I feel like my mood changes are just normal ones and none of my college friends or parents have ever noticed anything out of the normal. I know thinking about self harm isn't right and I don't know if maybe there is something wrong or if I just need to practice better self control?

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  • i feel the same way you do. there has to be a reason that you think about suicide maybe you just don't know it. it might be subconscious.
    Anonymous 42789 Replies Flag this Response
  • Sometimes these thoughts happen even when I feel great. could you have some kind of obsession with death? I know you believe you dont need to see a psychologist.. but i personally think you do, as you really do need to find out what is causing all this. It ISNT normal to be trying to OD. Something is going on here and a psychologist is to help work out what. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Suicidal_ideation (but you are going further than this!!) please seek proper help.
    taniaaust1 2267 Replies Flag this Response
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