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i dont noe wats wrong with me! please reply!

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  • Posted By: violentpop
  • October 13, 2007
  • 05:23 AM

Hey. I'm a 15 yr old girl and im just wondering if anyone can tell me if wats happening to me is normal.
Ever since my first car crash at the beginning of this year, I have been having strange thoughts.
Thoughts such as killing my family and being free, Slitting people throats, biting people's necks and drinking their blood, killing myself, becoming a boy, and even wrong thoughts about sex.
I don't know what's going on. I even think I'm sexually insecure. It's driving me insane and I feel so suffocating.
Also, ever since two years ago, I started becoming more paranoid. Like someone was going to kill me or come after me. Iunno...
I have letely been having a confidence problem. And I worry too much what other people think. Like for example one time, I was on the bus and I felt really fat that day. And I saw this lady sit next to me and I thought to myself (from the lady's pov) "****s that girl is ****ing fat. etc etc" its having me hating going outside.
And I have a bad sleeping pattern. Like one night I can't sleep at all. And the next I can sleep for fifteen hours straight. I can't concentrate at school and I'm failing. I just can't be bothered to do anything anymore. I just can't deal with all this crap. I feel like everyone is ganging up against me. Like people are laughing at me and talking about me behind my back. And I just can't trust them anymore. not even my parents after I found owt they lied to me about somthing.
I hate social events and i hate meeting new people. If i do meet new people I close down and I'm dead. Then suddenly i have a spurt of euphoria and im all open.
Iunno. Someone please help me. You now know my troubles and thoughts. So if you could please please hgelp me, I will love you forever!

Thank you all.

xoxoxo

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  • First thing you should think about is this. When someone dies or comes out missing, the person who is close to the person, wants to know answers to mainly, how, why, when, where, and who did this. Then they become more at ease, when they find out these answers. Compare this to whats going on with you. These feelings did not just pop up, they came along with trauma that has happened in your life. So start from what has happened to you. Where did these feelings come along. And if you cant do this alone, find someone who is trustworthy, and be honest about your feelings. Then once you find the when, where and who did this, confront them with how and why,state your grounds to this person, or thing. You then began to feel more at ease. Its always good to have justified reasons in your mind, so that you can move on and feel better about the way of life, and know that everyone will not hurt you or do the terrible things that you have been through, if you have been through anything traumatizing. And then you should begin to work on your confidence. This will help with the social phobia. That is when you feel that everyone around you is against you and talking about you. Once you get past this. I hope things get better for you. I know because I have been down the same road... good luck to you....
    tarmdooley 1 Replies
    • October 14, 2007
    • 02:48 AM
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  • Hello young lady,I imagine you need to be under the care of several different doctors, one for the ongoing issues you have from the car crash. I think you may have suffered from some brain injury. At school, you need to share with your school counselor or teacher some of your concerns (not all of them). Tell your teacher you want to be evaluated for special education under the category of traumatic brain injury, other health impaired (if you are bi-polar) or emotional disability. They will modify your assignments so you can graduate from high school and have a life...so that you become the beautiful person who is hiding underneath all your pain and limited view of the world or the larger part of the world. Get busy and get a job after school, like working at an animal shelter or something like that...something fun. You don't need to hang out with kids at school. Or, better yet, you can go to a virtual school and just stay home: www.k12.com they will send you a computer and books, but you need to get your special education in place first before going virtual. Your school has 60 days to get you into special education after your parents sign the paperwork.Now, it's really up to you to control your thoughts. Taking a pill the rest of your life or taking charge of the rest of your life...which is it???? Well, you need to be under the care of a psychiatrist and medical doctor for help with getting your weight down (study nutrition) and your school counselor...get busy with the rest of your life...you have a lot to do. And sex...well, of course you are sexually insecure, you are only 15 and it's okay to wait another 5 years before having sex. Don't let the crowd push you somewhere that you are not ready to go. You certainly aren't ready to be a mother and put all your feelings onto a child, so don't have sex.
    Monsterlove 2921 Replies
    • October 14, 2007
    • 07:44 AM
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  • Do you or have you ever smoked or chewed cannabis/skunk etc?or taken speed.Hey. I'm a 15 yr old girl and im just wondering if anyone can tell me if wats happening to me is normal.Ever since my first car crash at the beginning of this year, I have been having strange thoughts. Thoughts such as killing my family and being free, Slitting people throats, biting people's necks and drinking their blood, killing myself, becoming a boy, and even wrong thoughts about sex. I don't know what's going on. I even think I'm sexually insecure. It's driving me insane and I feel so suffocating. Also, ever since two years ago, I started becoming more paranoid. Like someone was going to kill me or come after me. Iunno...I have letely been having a confidence problem. And I worry too much what other people think. Like for example one time, I was on the bus and I felt really fat that day. And I saw this lady sit next to me and I thought to myself (from the lady's pov) "****s that girl is ****ing fat. etc etc" its having me hating going outside. And I have a bad sleeping pattern. Like one night I can't sleep at all. And the next I can sleep for fifteen hours straight. I can't concentrate at school and I'm failing. I just can't be bothered to do anything anymore. I just can't deal with all this crap. I feel like everyone is ganging up against me. Like people are laughing at me and talking about me behind my back. And I just can't trust them anymore. not even my parents after I found owt they lied to me about somthing. I hate social events and i hate meeting new people. If i do meet new people I close down and I'm dead. Then suddenly i have a spurt of euphoria and im all open.Iunno. Someone please help me. You now know my troubles and thoughts. So if you could please please hgelp me, I will love you forever! Thank you all. xoxoxo
    thoroughbred 4 Replies
    • October 14, 2007
    • 00:19 PM
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  • well the car crash wasnt that horrific. i wasnt thought to be taken care of in the hospital. although my head was very bruised and i couldnt lie down cos it hurt so much for a few nights. iunno if thats got anything to do wid it?? nothing much traumatic happened to me. only i was brought up the physically punished way and screamed at alot of the time but im, used to it now and i think its normal?? sigh. i guess i should see the counsellor, and get this all sorted. but....iunno. i cant tell my parents....i just cant. i alredy brought too much trouble for them. and they are always worried and stuff. but school is the prob. i mean i got my senior tests coming up, but i just cant concentrate anymore. its like i lost interest in everything. i just write and listen to music and i just cant work anything out. i cant do school anymore. iunno...thank you all for your replies. i really appreciate it.maybe if you can tell me some advice about seeing a doctor or somthing? is it free? and do they deal with mental issues too??xoxoxoxox
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • October 16, 2007
    • 06:12 AM
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  • Please go see a psycholigist you seriously need help, talking to one about EVRYTHING dont leave evrything out will make you feel much better in the long run. Also seeing a psychiatrist after is gonna be important because what your experiencing ALWAYS has a cure or a way to deal with it. Dont give up, ever! Before any of that though seeing a Doctor might be a good idea to see if you have any brain or physical problems,(I highly doubt you do just saying).Good luck i wish you all the best!
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • November 19, 2007
    • 09:20 PM
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