Hey. I'm a 15 yr old girl and im just wondering if anyone can tell me if wats happening to me is normal.
Ever since my first car crash at the beginning of this year, I have been having strange thoughts.
Thoughts such as killing my family and being free, Slitting people throats, biting people's necks and drinking their blood, killing myself, becoming a boy, and even wrong thoughts about sex.
I don't know what's going on. I even think I'm sexually insecure. It's driving me insane and I feel so suffocating.
Also, ever since two years ago, I started becoming more paranoid. Like someone was going to kill me or come after me. Iunno...
I have letely been having a confidence problem. And I worry too much what other people think. Like for example one time, I was on the bus and I felt really fat that day. And I saw this lady sit next to me and I thought to myself (from the lady's pov) "****s that girl is ****ing fat. etc etc" its having me hating going outside.
And I have a bad sleeping pattern. Like one night I can't sleep at all. And the next I can sleep for fifteen hours straight. I can't concentrate at school and I'm failing. I just can't be bothered to do anything anymore. I just can't deal with all this crap. I feel like everyone is ganging up against me. Like people are laughing at me and talking about me behind my back. And I just can't trust them anymore. not even my parents after I found owt they lied to me about somthing.
I hate social events and i hate meeting new people. If i do meet new people I close down and I'm dead. Then suddenly i have a spurt of euphoria and im all open.
Iunno. Someone please help me. You now know my troubles and thoughts. So if you could please please hgelp me, I will love you forever!
Thank you all.