*Sorry for the long post*
For the past two weeks, he's been a little off. Not mean or cold but quiet and stressed and his mood's been up and down. He's also been experiencing heart palpitations. He has a history of depression and anxiety disorder. He takes no medication, as of now. He's usually very positive, motivated and happy. He always has a smile on his face.
Yesterday, he had a panic attack and he felt pressure in his chest. He started "freaking out" and yelling. He said, "I don't want to die. Am I going to die?" He was on the verge of tears but then, the next minute, he got mad at me saying it was MY fault and that we weren't meant to be together. After twenty minutes, he was laughing again. :(
I ended up taking him to the hospital because he really thought there was something wrong with him or he was going to die. They put him in the psych area and let him talk to a psychologist. At that point, he was back to his normal self and they let him go home.
Last night, his mom said she and his father DECIDED that I, his wife, was causing his chest pains. She was mad because I told her she couldn't go to the hospital. I told her she couldn't go because my husband clearly stated he did not want her or anyone else but me there, he said she was causing him more stress. He called her later, after leaving the ER, and told her that. She said she didn't want to talk him or be a part of his life. He hung up and started loosing it again. It was pretty much another panic attack, less severe though. He didn't think he was going to die this time, just said he hated his life and everyone around him.
His grandfather's dying in a hospital bed right now, his mom is selfish and controlling, his favorite uncle is dying of untreatable cancer, his father has pretty much "disowned" him and isn't talking to him anymore. My husband is also a salesman, a great one at that, but work is so competitive and stressful for him. All these things in his life....they are not something I can control but they're causing him to act like someone else. He's usually so strong and positive but I think he's reached his breaking point. His depression seems like it's been triggered again. He doesn't seem to have an appetite anymore, and he just becomes quiet and sulks. He's been telling me to stop looking at him since the ER visit because he thinks I'm "observing" him. He's still getting heart palpitations and sometimes he stops what he's doing and holds his chest with his hand and takes a deep breath.
I told him I was worried. He, of course, said he's happy and fine. His eye's been twitching a lot lately too, that happens when he's nervous and stressed.
He said he'll go to a psychiatrist and psychologist, but seeing him this way is just nerve racking for me.
I just don't know what to do. I know him accepting help is good but is there anything I can do to help him? He seems so fragile right now ...