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How to make my life not so sad?

Posted In: Mental conditions 6 Replies
  • Posted By: axelrose
  • November 20, 2008
  • 11:31 PM

I work min wages and I'm 44 yrs old and am married and have 3 kids to raise with no help. I hate being alive and sometimes wish I wouldn't wake up from sleeping at night. Sometimes when I get something like the FLU I secretly wish it would take my life. When I drive down the road I sometimes wish people would hit me head on or maybe I might run off the road and he a tree head on doing like 70mph.

Am I different than most people? What can I do to not make my life suck this much?:(

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  • you need to see your doctor and tell him how you feel. then get a book to teach yourself cognitive therapy. ask people you know to be supportive. they can't help unless they know. please don't delay.
    emmarene 34 Replies
    • November 21, 2008
    • 11:07 AM
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  • This seems like a regular depression to me - I had exactly the same thoughts crossing my head in the past. There are several ways to get better. While i am not advocating pills for everyone, the cheapest and easiest way would be medication. I had very similar emotions for a while and Prozac got me out very well (takes ~ a month to feel the effect). I was taking it for 1.5 years and then stopped. Now, 8 month later - so far so good, althoug i may get depressed from time to time but it usually never lasts more than a day or two now. The better option imo is a therapy if you can afford it. I could not, so pills were the only option for me. Either way... you have to look for whatever positive you have in your life and concentrate on that. Whatever it may be... faith, kids, pets, hobby? Keep yourself busy, and you will have less time to be depressed.
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • December 1, 2008
    • 09:05 PM
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  • Hi,Wasdepressed has a good answer for you there. I get depressed often too, but after taking Vit D and a half hour walk on a regular basis, as well as concentrating on positive things in my life, I have been able to avoid medication. Kiera
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • December 1, 2008
    • 10:00 PM
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  • Hi,Wasdepressed has a good answer for you there. I get depressed often too, but after taking Vit D and a half hour walk on a regular basis, as well as concentrating on positive things in my life, I have been able to avoid medication. KieraButs $8 and hour @44 yrs with kids and bills aint no good living in my books. Play my shoes one day and you'd be derpressed as well.thanks
    axelrose 66 Replies
    • December 1, 2008
    • 11:36 PM
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  • Please , for your sake and the sake of your family, get help. Look for a family clinic with sliding scale fees if you don't have health insurance. Do this now and please don't put it off! Do you drink alcohol? If so, then try to stop and look into AA or alanon. Go to your local library and look up some books that seem like they may help you. The local library is an amazing resource. Realize that there are people in your world who care about you and want you to feel better. You maybe can't change your circumstances or your stress levels but you CAN change your outlook - thru meds or thru therapy or thru supplements like Vit D and B complex. These can really help. Best wishesDOM
    acuann 3080 Replies
    • December 2, 2008
    • 03:15 AM
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  • Wow, you sound so much like me a 6mths to a Year ago! I have suffered from depression off and on most of my adult life. I went to my Dr @ the time and he tossed me a prescription for Celexa & Paxil ( antidepressants) and said... these have worked before and so I took them. When the Celexa stopped working, he switched to Paxil. Thats how my ***l began. He assumed that because I had a history of depression that this was what was needed @ the time without question. Into the 2nd mth on the Paxil, I wanted to die. I stopped socializing, wanted to sleep all the time, ate with gusto, lost all sensation of caring. I stopped doing all the things that used to make me happy. I especially became jealous of anyone who was happy, had more, cared more. I became resentful, looked @ the obituraries and wished it was me. Financially my family was in debt, my kids seemed to take me more for granted( or so it seemed), same with my spouse. I got laid off from my sales job because I could no longer sell and my health got worse. It was then @ my lowest I had an awakening of sorts. I realised that it was situational depression and weaned myself off the Paxil. It was like a light bulb turning on...I decided to take my life back! It doesn't happen overnight, its a thought process. Its how you yourself view how your life has become, either you take the steps to change it, or you let life beat you down. After being out of work for over 6mths, I started back to work in a just over minimum wage in a non sales entry job in a non profit charity. I only work part time (6hrs) no wknds...I did this to get my confidence back after beating myself down for so long. I changed things @ home with everyone taking responsibility for caring for the home. I semi turned my back on medication to deal with depression and supplemented with vitamins, herbs & changed my diet. It may just be axelrose that you need to just change a few things in your life even slightly to find some happiness whether it be a job change, take on a new hobby, find support within your family and friend unit even. I had noone also... so I know how that feels when it feels like noone cares or the support just isn't there. Another good thing is to find the time to do something just for you....have some ME time. Finding someone on the outside looking in helps too, so a pastor @ a church, social worker or some form of counselling or therapy sometimes helps also to get all the stress out in open and get it all off your chest so you can think more clearly. Sorry this is a little longwinded but, just know that its a rough life out there and you have to fight and work hard to build a positive outcome. It might not be perfect, however, it does look brighter in time. If you need to talk, email me @ semi_alert@hotmail.com Good Luck As EvErCat
    kitcat48 80 Replies
    • December 2, 2008
    • 03:35 AM
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