This will be realy puzzleing too figure out, but i took a rough guess, but i'm clueless.
I have Aspergers, I turned 17 on the 27th, And a possability of the following...And more?
I have lost interest in everything, and went completly numb ages ago. (2-3 years, mabey more, i realy cant remember, i thought going numb was normal, so i left it for years, now it's sever, and my hate for everything...)
I hav't left my house in weeks, i rarly leave, if i go out i feel realy realy bad when i come back in for a day for unknone reasons, but it might be my aspergers.
I seem too be suffering alot, it may be depression, Schizophrenia, Bipolar?
I have contacted a docter, ect ect, and specialists, i'm waiting on them.
I feel more or less 100% numb, emmotion less, and i cant remember alot of emmotions like happyness, since there somwhat rare for me now, i basicly have no interests, i hate more or less everything, strugle sleeping, the "Breakdowns" what i call them when they get bad, it happens commonly, i end up crying in the dark for days on end, unable too eat, crying stoping randomly, then starting for no reason, its basicly suffering tourture, i dont understand it at all. I will try too list other effects now.
Loss of interst in life, permernantly, i hate life 24/7 and i cant remember the last time i was fine.
Random thoughts of death, somwhat uncommon.
Disliking everything ALOT, i have nuthin' too do, at all, i would have more fun stabbing myself with a stun-gun than playing my 360, or any game for PC, 360, ect...
I'm a loner, i cant stand being around people for longer than 15 minutes, Other than my mom.
I feel like life is like never waking up from a nightmare, basicly, im numb, more or less emmotion less other than the suffering i cant describe...
My breakdowns happen 2-4 times a week, somtimes more.
If i think abought what i'm going too do, i think for a few seconds, and start too feel awfull, and if i did it i would feel much much worst, and alot of the time, if i do it, i do feel much much worst.
Alittle help before i give up please?