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  • Posted By: Anonymous
  • June 27, 2007
  • 07:43 PM

I am 38 and feel like I have no control of my life:

Have never held a job longer than 3 months
Cant figure out who I am, what my beliefs are, they change hourly
racing thoughts
cant focus and sometimes have no motivation at all
other times i hyperfocus and act like I have ocd with my car, home, body, etc
Every evening I feel guilt and sit down and write out what I need to do to change, this is when I have "big ideas" inventions, etc.
I have an extreme temper, mentally abusive and generally a miserable person
some days I have like euphoria and just want to hug people (i dont)
some days I have this deep sadness for mankind like pity, like life is meaningless and nothing but pain
as I write this I kind of watch myself from out of my body
sometimes I get real hot and sweat for no reason
I dont feel complete , meaning I feel disconnected and know something is wrong with me
my mind never shuts off, my energy sometimes is so high I can knock out like 10 things at once, other times nothing
I have a list of to dos for my life, my kids, house needs (for each room), etc
I do some things but other things have been on my list for 7 years, as much as I want to do them and as much as I know I need to work to help my family out I dont, I do all the plans look for jobs, interview etc but never follow through, I have been looking for a job for 3 years now.

any ideas...adhd or bipolar I am thinking

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  • Sounds bipolar, but lets not count our collective chickens before they hatch. I have had similar symptoms with regards to the grandiose plans but not actually completing them and the feeling that my brain is runing as a friend put it "at a million miles per hour". Perhaps we can relate. Let me know, at pavle@uchicago.edu. Btw, thusfar I have not been diagnosed as bipolar but nonetheless am going to be later in the week starting (on my own choice) to take the mood stabilizer Lamictal (lamotrigine) to see if it can help me in some way.Teddy
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  • www.psychforums.comYou'll get better responses there.
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