I am a 25 yr old Indian gal. I think i am average looking type.
I am healthy with no issues.
But I am having so many body flaws as below , that I am depressed.
my skin is bad. I am wheatish brown in color, but my whole body is not of one color , some places are much darker like my buttocks and some parts are fairer. Basically the skin is not clear. When I look myself in the mirror I feel odd.
I have slight body hair too. All my relations have clear skin and no body hair except myself :(.
i have a huge black birthmark(from my birth) on my left back shoulder. I had been to skin specialist and they said no harm. I am still trying to live with this. Unfortunately I am unable to wear deep neck dresses with the fear that people will keep gaping at it and ask me questions.
And to add on top of all these, I have got stretch marks on my buttocks and legs ... :(.
When I am dressed people compliment me saying I have a great body .
And sometimes a compliment that I am looking sexy (which I never understood) But I never get any satisfaction as I know the truth , with naked how ugly I am .
But I also know I am smart person and people like my company. I have many great friends, but if any guy who is handsome approaches me , i shy back. I donot continue my relationship beyond friendship as my mind feels that I am not worth that person , because of all the flaws my body has.
But my main fear of all is "HAVING SEX" coz i need to be naked and scared the guy will hate me for the way I look.
I am attracted to opposite sex, and I have come across guys who are attracted to me. But my fear is once I am naked they will never like me :(
Help me ........ How do i come out of this condition???? Are my fears very irrational ???