My question is: do you feel like you can't quite "focus" on the world around you? Like you're behind a plate of glass? Or in a fog?
I tried to describe this feeling to several doctors. I got a diagnosis for OCD, even though I have absolutely no compusions. Just an overactive brain.
My question to you is: Do you have this symptom I'm complaining of, and if so, what have you been diagnosed with?
Here are a couple ways I tried to explain this vision problem:
1. You know when you're on the phone and you're chatting away and you're also doing laundry, putting dishes away, etc? Well, you know how you're not really aware that you're doing the chores, because your mind is in the phone convo, then you hang up the phone and realize, hey I Just got all this work done...but I don't really remember it?!?!
It's like that for me all day long, regardless of if I'm on the phone. My brain is busy, while my body is doing the day to day things.
2. You know how when you stop using your computer, it switches off into sleep mode after awhile? Well, I feel like my brain is CONSTANTLY switching into sleep mode, where I day dream about anything and everything, even when I try SO HARD to keep it working on my task at hand.
3. I feel like I'm an eternal 2 year old, who can only do "parallel play" with her friends. I don't like to interact with people, but I like to be around them.
4. I have constant dialogue in my head, thoughts, conversation planning, scenario creating. I'm so "in my head" that I can't see the outside world.
5. I stare at my children and try to focus on them and really "see" them. But it's like my brain can't hold the focus. I constantly look at them and think, "I'm missing this."
Can anyone relate?