I think i started obsessing about my appearance when i was 13, that's as far back as i remember, i began to notice many bad things in my appearance, and i spent most of my time looking in the mirror. I'm now 20. I dropped out of school at 14(home schooled) , and now i need to go to college, but i don't. I'm almost a recluse, and when i go out (very rarely), i am soo conscious i feel like dying. I go to VERY great lengths to avoid people.
My biggest concern is my face size, but there are other things as well. I measure my face size quite often....
I can't socialize at all, and every night i spend the whole night looking in the mirror, i've done this for years. I can't afford surgery. I don't know what to do....i can't live with myself anymore. It's getting worse i think (if it can). If i have to go out i start panicking, i can't stand being around other people and them looking at me. My family is suffering too, i constantly ask them for reassurance, and i'm too dependent on them, I can't live like this anymore....what do i do