I feel like I am going crazy, I fight the fear of looking like a social outcast, I fear my own best friends are there to help me feel normal, I feel as if I am looking from the outside in, I can't remember what feeling normal and anchored is like, what is reality? Why do I feel as if I am mentally handicaped, and actually (100%) believe it sometimes? why do I have to try to hide what I feel is real? Do people notice this in me? What is wrong with me? Is there hope?
All these symptoms are real, and very confusing to me, I want to cry out for help, but I can't!