Earlier this year I was diagonsed with Manic Depression for several reasons.
Later as the depression developed, professionals thought I may have Bipolar but could not diagnose me seen as I'm under 18.
A few months later and my depression is getting much better, but ever since I was young I've had the idea that I've been someone special, someone with powers, powers to harm other people. Example would be like a super hero, flying, super strength, magic etc.
I'm obsessed with power over people, I want people to tremble when I walk past, be scared of me, I want to bring misery and suffering to those who do something I dont like. All in all I just want people to be scared of me. It kills me so to know that I will never be able to hold this kind of power.
This has been here way before my depression came on and is still there even after.
I've tried describing this to my psychs but they just always brush it off.
Any advice, thoughts?