Hey guys, well a little back ground. I'm 17 years old and i'm gay, i came out when in august 2009 and everyone was cool with it. but i started being sexually active around 15 and since then i've slept with 67 men. This isn't something i'm proud of but i just cant help myself, i always tell myself i'm going to stop and settle down but i always find myself picking up another guy online. My parents don't know about how many people i've slept with because i always tell them i'm going to friends houses. Lately i've just been having crazy mood swings and snapping at everyone, i'm always getting in fights with friends and family. I cant hold down a steady relationship just because i get bored easily or we sleep together right away and i just leave. I'm also ashamed to admit that i've been getting into drugs as well. But i do try to live healthy and i am constantly at gym and trying to eat healthy, i think i have pretty low self esteem tho :\. I masturbate at least 4 times a day and i'm always thinking about sex.
this honestly scares me and i want to stop, can someone out there please offer an opinion? or something to do.
i dont want to go to my parents because i think they would just freak out so i have no where to turn. please help