My main question is: Is it possible to be a compulsive over-eater and an anorexic?
I've always eaten alot. When i was about 13 years old i had a problem with pot, after i developed Fibromyalgia i wasn't able to smoke pot anymore... well i had a bad break up and developed an eating disorder (anorexia). I dropped from 140lbs to 100lbs. I had a lot of ups and downs in between, but over all, that's what i lost.
I would long periods of time without eating, but it was a constant battle to keep myself from binge eating. I would literally eat until i would involentarily throw up, sometime right on my plate.
I understand this is part of anorexia, but i go through stages where i wont be able to stop eating for a few months. My weight will shoot back up to 140lb and i'll just keep eating.
I've been diagnosed with Bipolar disorder. I've had numerous doctors tell me that i am anorexic and still more doctors that have told me i'm a compulsive over-eater.
I'm scared to seek treatment for anorexia. Mainly because i can't imagine being anything more then 105lbs for the rest of my life. The thought makes me want to cry. (Yes, i know that's part of my body image issues).
I am in counseling, but i don't like to tell them about my eating problems because i don't want to be pressured to eat.
I guess i'm just a little lost and looking for some advice.
Thanks so much
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