I am a 31 y/o female who has had a diagnosis of PTSD, and Major Depression since I was in college. I started developing "disordered eating" patterns when I was 20. I never binged enough to qualify for a full diagnosis of Bulimia, but for the last 11 years have purged regularly (5-6 times per week on a good week) normal meals to maintian my weight. I have also abused diuretics and laxatives, but have not used those in 7 months. I am on medication for the depression (wellbutrin) and xanax for my anxiety. My current job is very stressful and I find myself with few resources left to manage my stress in a health way. As a result my "disordered eating" has gotten worse. My husband knows I had a ED in the past but does not know I am still activly engaged in my behavior. However, in the last few months, I've become increasingly concerned about my health. I have had acid reflux on a daily basis for the last month and a half. Most of the time it makes it so I have no appetite whatsoever. Exactly what you would think someone with an ED would want, but it is painful ALL day. COuld this be because of the ED?
I currently live in country where treatment is not available, even good therapy. I'm at the end of my rope and don't know what to do. Any suggestions would be really helpful.