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CLOULD I have BPD????

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  • Posted By: Anonymous
  • September 15, 2006
  • 04:41 PM

I was recetly diagnosed with bipolar disorder unspecified... I've been reading about the symptoms of BPD and I became concerned. I have an extreme fear of being left alone and it has been so bad in the past that when when my now X husband was going to visit his parents in NY and wouldn't let me come along, I became violent and I ended up getting arrested! Also, I have been recording my moods and they seem to fluctuate many times thru out the day, depending on situations and I was confused of whether I was just rapid cycling or it was something more! As for trauma... I've had cancer, was in a sever car accident and my adolecent years were miserable and my mother drained me of my self-esteem! Is it possible that I am BPD? I have not experience psychosis, but I don't know if this makes a difference. But if somebody could enlighten me about this, I would greatly appreciate! I have two little girls I need to be a mother too, so finding out what I could have and getting proper treatment is very crucial! Thank you.:confused:

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  • Sounds possible, I have the Borderline Personality Diagnosis after being told for years that I had anxiety and depression, but my moods swung far too dramatically for unipolar depression but too quickly for bipolar depression, and I was aggressive. I don't have psychosis either. Talk to ur psych about ur concerns.
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • October 14, 2006
    • 00:44 PM
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  • do younow why people do that
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • October 16, 2006
    • 06:52 PM
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  • I would find a seasoned psychotherapist who has a lot of experience with mood disorders and a reputuable name before I trust a BPD diagnosis. It is the diagnosis du jour and the pharmaceutical industry and its reps love it because there are so many drugs they have to sell for one treatment. It used to be if you were bipolar (manic-depressive in the old days), the treatment was the inexpensive salt, lithium. Now, a patient diagnosed with BPD can be prescribed a mood stabilizer (and the weight gain can cause a whole other set of health issues and psychological issues), an anti-psychotic (more weight gain!), an anti-depressant, a medication for sleep (groggy mornings), and a medication for alertness (Provigil is popular to wake up with these days), and this is if you're perceived as stable. If you live where there is a university medical center, call the psychiatric department for a referral to a practitioner with mood disorder expertise. I've had better luck by looking into psychoanalytic societies for referrals. All levels of therapists train in these institutions post-graduate, from medical doctors to licensed master level social workers. The benefit of seeing these practitioners is that they have so much more training in the practice of psychotherapy and in differential diagnosis. They have also done their own therapy and, because of the added training and education, have had more supervision. All this aside, from what little you have said, it doesn't sound like bipolar to me. Bipolar is a mental illness that requires daily, for-the-rest-of-your-life, psychotropic medication to manage mood swings that range from suicidal, barely-functioning depressions to manias that are hypersexual, that involve outlandish spending (choking debt once you come out of it that can level your family and credit), and other behaviors that are listed in the latest DSM. Someone mentioned boderline personality disorder. Traumatic childhoods can produce borderline personality disorder, but this is something to talk to a psychotherapist about. You need to TALK to someone who can hear your whole story and piece together what has happened to you and how it fits your current situation. You've had some frightening health problems as an adult, too. Those can stir up all the helplessness of a terrible childhood. It's Wham! Bam! What you describe when your husband leaves sounds like unbearable feelings of abandonment. Medication is not going to treat that.I hope you can find yourself a compassionate, mature therapist who will keep very good boundaries and patience with you. These sessions are about and for you, no matter how curious you become about your therapist. Use every interaction and feeling you might have in there (transference is a powerful thing) to explore safely what might be going on in your life outside that room. Hopefully, you will be able to get past those feelings well enough to feel safe on your own temporarily. It's never forever when someone you love leaves, even if it feels like it might be at the time.I write too much. Best of luck! Take care of yourself. It will all work out. Your e-forum co-survivor from the land of crummy childhoods who was misdiagnosed with bipolar disorder three years ago and found my way out with a well-trained counselor. It took TALK, not medicating myself to sleep all day, to deal with what was really wrong with my life. (Not that there aren't bonafide bipolars out there. I have known people who are, but they live in fear of their manic or depressive episodes; they are so debilitaing in the long run. One friend in a manic state thought all the dogs in the neighborhood were hers and tried to collect them all from their yards in her car one afternoon. This did not go over well with the neighbors and she was mortified when she came down and had to return to her normal life. The kids were so scared of her for a long while because she tried to take their pets. I never did find out what the rationale was behind her rescue mission, but I'm sure it was well-intentioned in her grandiose scheme of things at the time.)
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • December 16, 2006
    • 05:00 AM
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  • Well, I am one of those bonafide BiPolars... Was finally correctly diagnosed after going through a hellacious Manic episode after taking Paxil for my depression. Trust me, Paxil alone is BAD for Biplors. It will send us shooting straight for the moon and howling the whole manic way. Bad trip. You hit the nail on the head. Life long medication required to moderate the chemical imbalance. I still cycle but with meds I don't have the horrendous extremes. All I take (NOW) is Lithium and Lexapro. It took awhile to get stabilized and I did need those other types of meds to get me HERE....I guess my Bipolar diagnosis was so EASY because by that time I was so flaming stereotypical. Talk about all the classic signs. It took me YEARS to recover from the fallout of that manic episode. Very devastating.But life does go on. Good luck with your journey.
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • January 8, 2007
    • 01:15 AM
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  • I havent been diagnosed with anything ever....I'm 16 currently a junior..I never thought of myself as not being able to see in the gray areas.In school I always act happy but sometimes I can slip and be angry over the dumbest things.Only a few people....Who have gotten to know me....have seen the side of me i dont want anyone to see.I dont want to think I have a disorder and yet i do. Because if I dont have it it must mean there's something wrong with me, and if i do have it it means somethings really wrong with me.My mood swings a lot and I feel like I'm very manipulative (though I deny it...I always can make people see my way....think im right....). I hardly think im wrong- I read people and I feel things. I dont...base anything on facts. My mind skips around a lot. I haven't been diagnosed will ADD but EVERYONE in my family thinks I have it. I'm positive I do. And I also think I have BPDWhen I was reading about it today...for the first time....Everything every site listed I had- or thought- or acted that way.I believe Im' a tool.But maybe I'm worse.Maybe I'm crazy.If I asked my parents to get diagnosed they wouldnt believe me and they probably wont do it.Do you think if I do nothing it will go away? Can BPD go away?Do I even have it? If anyone could email me back....and tell me SOMETHINGANYTHING to door to thinkor somethingI'd apreciate it.
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • February 1, 2007
    • 09:58 PM
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  • i very much admire the extended post above,the one referring to the "pet rescue"lady.there are both ends of the evolutionary scale contributing on this site alright. i would just like to add that my health is o.k.,and i dont have anything to add in the way of advice , (other than"praise lithium!" which has so much helped a dear friend of mine after a lifetime of suffering.)i just got mad at the cruelty i was seeing expressed here.i am so sorry that ill people have to witness it.
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • February 7, 2007
    • 07:37 PM
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  • Hi.I just wanted to say, from my experience as having been diagnosed with BPD both ADD/ADHD and BPD show similar symptoms. although from what i have read trauma is seen to be a catalyst in BPD. It is hard to determine these types of symptoms as a lot of personality disorders and ADD/ADHD overlap each other in their symptoms.I believe I am ADD/ADHD yet due to certain trauma in my childhood, adult life (note: personality can make you more vulnerable to traumatic reactions - sensitivity) and the social consequences of impulsiveness and attention problems (ADD/ADHD) has left me isolated, depressive, anxious, mood swings, reactive etc (all the BPD symptoms). It can be hard for a specialist to determine which is which although it can be both (ADD/ADHD BPD). The area of personality disorders and ADD/ADHD are very very subjective.All I know is I wish I had been diagnosed for ADD/ADHD at your age (the earlier the better) and put into specialized education. If there is nothing you can do or no one to see there is a therapy called Acceptance Commitment Therapy (ACT) google it. ACT hasn't radically changed my life, I dont think there is anything that can do that for me, but in small ways over time I think it can make a difference. Keep learning and keep talking to people who know about this stuff.All I can say is try your best because there is a high suicide rate amongst people with BPD and very high alcohol and substance abuse rates amongst those with ADD/ADHD and BPD (Self medication)......trust me do everything you can to avoid this the consequences can be enormous.p.s. Borderlines are usually highly manipulative Borderline isn't something you want to bediagnosed with I hate the term.
    Anonymous 42789 Replies
    • November 5, 2008
    • 05:37 AM
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